Friday, November 13, 2009

Before the jog.. about work and colleagues

On Tuesday, my colleague, whom I feel has the inclination to be gay, seemed to hint that we should go on a holiday together. When we talked about travel plans, I told her I was going to Australia and Cambodia with a friend and left it as that.

On Wednesday, we were sitting together during a meeting and she suggested watching a movie. I decided to take the effort to get to know her better as a friend and colleague and agreed to watch it with her. She immediately suggested Monday after work. I was a little reluctant because I knew I wanted to spend the time training, yet I felt bad because as friends, we are supposed to give time to each other. The other reason I said yes to Monday was because the movie she suggested watching was ending its run. However, she seemed too overexcited and friendly and that got me scared, so I decided to ask her if it was okay for A to go with us, afterall the three of us work quite closely together. She said okay (with a smile, over sms). So the three of us have a date for dinner and movie @ Vivocity on Monday. That is another day without training. Bleah.

Maybe she just needs some company. I find it difficult to give a lot of myself to someone whom I cannot be myself with. I don't know if that is too selfish.

I was thinking that I will prolly come out to her over dinner.

A is getting quite comfortable with me. She has been more physically affectionate i.e grabbing my arm/elbow and holding it for the duration of time when we are talking. I do feel a lil uncomfortable yet I think this kinda signifies that she is comfortable with me and that makes me glad. I really think she has some gay genes in her. She enjoys looking at women's bodies and openly comments about what sexy bodies they have. And she just told some of our colleagues today that she would want to go on a spa holiday with me so she can see my body. Argh. I feel embarrassed whenever she says things like that.

Anywayz, I made a few booboos wrt the result slips and caused a colleague to do extra work because of my mistakes :( I feel really bad. I shall get him something to thank him.
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