And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to
glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just
dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles. It was an
astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they
have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others
habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even
stay together, much less love each other?
The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the
claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad
relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed.
It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship
from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early
stages. Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see
yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by
which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to
see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people
choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period
of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.
This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny
the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart
from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of
unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any
normal perception of what life would be like together.
The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends
before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each
other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their
worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up
into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.
This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of
your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other
keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much
you will enjoy each others company over the long term.
If your laughter together is good and healthy and not at the expense of
others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the
child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise
each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep
the world around you new.
Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most
intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn
sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to
turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your
relationship can become based on being critical together.
After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you
respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their
relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They
find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the
emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship
ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner
treats people or circumstances in a way you can't accept, you will
inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals
with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love
will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you
each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not
respect each other.
Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on
the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides
in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the
unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the
literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not
become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and
misunderstood.
There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have
unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private
commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny.
If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts
of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves
growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the
business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and
dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty
hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied
with their mates.
So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with
whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in
your hearts.
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Saturday, January 31, 2009
Food for Thought - How much do we desire God?
If we get to go to heaven and are able to enjoy all the good things; love, good food, lots of money, happiness, sex *clears throat* , etc.. you get my drift, but God is not in heaven, would we want to go to heaven?
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my priorities are wrong lor
I procrastinate getting assessment books for my tuition kid for like 2 weeks already but the moment my tube of shuttlecocks run out, I made up my mind to make a trip to Lot 1 to get them. Sigh.
Anyway, I got both the assessment books and the shuttlecocks. Plus bubble tea.
Back to work.
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Anyway, I got both the assessment books and the shuttlecocks. Plus bubble tea.
Back to work.
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Loss
I attended 2 wakes in the last week and a half, one just last night. My tennis coach's dad. He shared with me last week that though his dad has reached a stage where it's prolly better for him to go. But he was very stubborn, to the point of not wanting to go for an operation to treat his infections because he feared that he might not wake up after that. His dad had been in the hospital for close to 2 weeks. He shared that his father was not a believer and I told him that perhaps the reason why God is still keeping him might be because God is giving him a chance to reach out to his dad.
Last night, after the wake, he shared with anne and I that on the night his dad went, his good friend actually went down to pray for and pray with the dad. Then his dad left at 11ish at night. But he's not sure if his dad received Jesus that night.
Makes me think about my parents' salvation and how I have been slacked in praying for them. :(. I have tried on a few occasions to share with them, but they said they are too busy with their lives to want to "commit to christianity". As for me, I have also been too concerned about the things in my life to care about the ones who are supposedly closest to me. Something's gotta change. I don't think I want to wait till they are on their death bed before I really try to persuade them to receive Jesus into their life, and not be certain whether they actually do.
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Last night, after the wake, he shared with anne and I that on the night his dad went, his good friend actually went down to pray for and pray with the dad. Then his dad left at 11ish at night. But he's not sure if his dad received Jesus that night.
Makes me think about my parents' salvation and how I have been slacked in praying for them. :(. I have tried on a few occasions to share with them, but they said they are too busy with their lives to want to "commit to christianity". As for me, I have also been too concerned about the things in my life to care about the ones who are supposedly closest to me. Something's gotta change. I don't think I want to wait till they are on their death bed before I really try to persuade them to receive Jesus into their life, and not be certain whether they actually do.
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My first CG after IDT
It was good meeting up with the old folks at CG. Most of the people are couples. Young couples. We have pretty much been through the journey together from the time where all of us were single till now.
Thing is, I remembered them sharing their struggles being together with their then boyfriends before they got married. After they got married, the struggles did translate into some sort of problems. Then they have the phase of feeling detached from each other.. Sure, there are ups in the relationships too; the companionship.. but one of them put it right, that the downs could be quite bad. You can just shrug off a disagreement with someone who is not so close to you, but having arguments with someone who is very dear hurts to the point where the whole life could be turned upside down. Sometimes, it makes me really think whether being in a relationship is worth that much pain.
I am quite the idealist when it comes to relationships. I never want to feel detached from my partner in future. I think it's too much pain for my fragile heart.
When it comes to evaluating whether a relationship is good for a person, how much uncertainty is healthy? No one really knows, do they? Though some people may have the experiences and advice to share , it's no guarantee that their relationship will still last in future.
Even counselors may not be too helpful especially if they are straight.
I figure the best bet would be to pray and let God lead the way. Going with the peace in the heart kind of mindset seems most feasible.
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Thing is, I remembered them sharing their struggles being together with their then boyfriends before they got married. After they got married, the struggles did translate into some sort of problems. Then they have the phase of feeling detached from each other.. Sure, there are ups in the relationships too; the companionship.. but one of them put it right, that the downs could be quite bad. You can just shrug off a disagreement with someone who is not so close to you, but having arguments with someone who is very dear hurts to the point where the whole life could be turned upside down. Sometimes, it makes me really think whether being in a relationship is worth that much pain.
I am quite the idealist when it comes to relationships. I never want to feel detached from my partner in future. I think it's too much pain for my fragile heart.
When it comes to evaluating whether a relationship is good for a person, how much uncertainty is healthy? No one really knows, do they? Though some people may have the experiences and advice to share , it's no guarantee that their relationship will still last in future.
Even counselors may not be too helpful especially if they are straight.
I figure the best bet would be to pray and let God lead the way. Going with the peace in the heart kind of mindset seems most feasible.
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the colleague who never fails to make me laugh when she speaks
she was my reporting officer last year. She has been teaching for 20 over years. Her English is powerful. She speaks well, and I am sure she writes well too. But she likes to entertain us too. So she speaks funny out of classrooms and meetings.
This is our sms exchange:
Me: Hi, is my composition package with you?
G; I is no haves. U findings it, cans is sharings me? Is tks 4 u :)
Me: Sure :) There is the accident, flooding and drowning ones already on the tray at the front of my table. Just take, make a copy and put it back k? :)
G: Is cans. I is tkg yoos 4 ur kindness :)
Me: Doesn't it take you very long to write and spell like that? So much time ah? Or already in your dictionary? G's sms dictionary.
G: Hanor hanor! It's all is theres mah. Just pluckings onelys mah. so easiness one. :D
Best hor? :)
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This is our sms exchange:
Me: Hi, is my composition package with you?
G; I is no haves. U findings it, cans is sharings me? Is tks 4 u :)
Me: Sure :) There is the accident, flooding and drowning ones already on the tray at the front of my table. Just take, make a copy and put it back k? :)
G: Is cans. I is tkg yoos 4 ur kindness :)
Me: Doesn't it take you very long to write and spell like that? So much time ah? Or already in your dictionary? G's sms dictionary.
G: Hanor hanor! It's all is theres mah. Just pluckings onelys mah. so easiness one. :D
Best hor? :)
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Friday, January 30, 2009
more on loss
I lost my earring. Diamond earring. I was pretty upset for a few hours.
Made me think, what can be lost is probably not something we want to hold on tightly to.
Not that we give up on things easily, but we prolly shouldn't let our entire life centre around it. Makes sense?
3 things that are eternal: The word of God, God, and the souls of men
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Made me think, what can be lost is probably not something we want to hold on tightly to.
Not that we give up on things easily, but we prolly shouldn't let our entire life centre around it. Makes sense?
3 things that are eternal: The word of God, God, and the souls of men
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Thursday, January 29, 2009
TGIF! :)
I saw so many ex P2 kids that I used to teach PE to. So many of them in A class. Smart students.
I really participated fully in today's Netball session with the kids. It has been a long while since I am that involved.
I will be selecting and training a team of netballers because I am sending them in for the Nationals Netball Competition. More time and work, but I am excited.
When there is purpose, there is direction, then there will be action taken.
I received a box of pineapple tarts today. So sweet lor.
There are many people who are nice to me. I thank God that they love me.
My mum was surprised to see me home early tonight. And she's asking me strange questions. I think it is from the relatives' comments. They think since my life so happening (and that I look pretty *rolls eyes*), that means I must have a bf. I just left earliER for other gatherings wat..........
My Gu MA was super unhappy that her 2 daughters (in their 40s) and all her nieces are not getting married. kekeke.. she had this disappoving look and disapproving tone in her voice even during CNY. Tsk tsk. I think she will faint from joy the moment one of us announces that we are getting married.
Honestly, there should be other more innovative FAQs that people come up with other than when is your turn? where is your bf? When are you having a child? how's work? kinda questions.
I like cookie a lot more when she gets older. There is this wistful expression in her eyes when she looks at me. Like she knows me. Like meaningful eye contact lor...
I did quite a bit of marking today. That made me very tired.
I finished Psalms finally. Now starting on the book of 1 Corinthians.
I need more sleep!! I am so not putting activities in my schedule other than those already there.
I am happy to be playing badminton tomoro and on monday. Yoohoo. I like!
I got CG tomoro. Still wondering if I should go to BB after that. But I just said I am not putting activities into my schedule hor. See how.
Moreover, I am not even 50% done preparing for facilitation for BS!
It will be a busy 2 weeks. *shudders*
I am easily contented.
I have never gone to River Hongbao before. Sad?
I wanna go for a holidaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy.
I need to take out my eyes now.
It is so cold I am going to climb up my bed after I take out my eyes.
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I really participated fully in today's Netball session with the kids. It has been a long while since I am that involved.
I will be selecting and training a team of netballers because I am sending them in for the Nationals Netball Competition. More time and work, but I am excited.
When there is purpose, there is direction, then there will be action taken.
I received a box of pineapple tarts today. So sweet lor.
There are many people who are nice to me. I thank God that they love me.
My mum was surprised to see me home early tonight. And she's asking me strange questions. I think it is from the relatives' comments. They think since my life so happening (and that I look pretty *rolls eyes*), that means I must have a bf. I just left earliER for other gatherings wat..........
My Gu MA was super unhappy that her 2 daughters (in their 40s) and all her nieces are not getting married. kekeke.. she had this disappoving look and disapproving tone in her voice even during CNY. Tsk tsk. I think she will faint from joy the moment one of us announces that we are getting married.
Honestly, there should be other more innovative FAQs that people come up with other than when is your turn? where is your bf? When are you having a child? how's work? kinda questions.
I like cookie a lot more when she gets older. There is this wistful expression in her eyes when she looks at me. Like she knows me. Like meaningful eye contact lor...
I did quite a bit of marking today. That made me very tired.
I finished Psalms finally. Now starting on the book of 1 Corinthians.
I need more sleep!! I am so not putting activities in my schedule other than those already there.
I am happy to be playing badminton tomoro and on monday. Yoohoo. I like!
I got CG tomoro. Still wondering if I should go to BB after that. But I just said I am not putting activities into my schedule hor. See how.
Moreover, I am not even 50% done preparing for facilitation for BS!
It will be a busy 2 weeks. *shudders*
I am easily contented.
I have never gone to River Hongbao before. Sad?
I wanna go for a holidaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy.
I need to take out my eyes now.
It is so cold I am going to climb up my bed after I take out my eyes.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2009
book of colossians
in my journal, I have a page of faith, where I wrote down the prayer items and one of the prayer items that I have is for everyone in plush to grow deeper in our walk with God. It's true that prayers need not be long. They just need to be specific, but praying for the same thing almost everyday sometimes seem like a routine.
Today, as I was reading the book of Colossians, I thank God that Paul taught me how to pray for each and everyone of us. There is so much depth in the bible that it refreshes my heart and desire to commit each and everyone of us to the Lord again. The word of God really meets the needs of His people and it helps us to pray according to His will for us. Yep.
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Today, as I was reading the book of Colossians, I thank God that Paul taught me how to pray for each and everyone of us. There is so much depth in the bible that it refreshes my heart and desire to commit each and everyone of us to the Lord again. The word of God really meets the needs of His people and it helps us to pray according to His will for us. Yep.
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Monday, January 26, 2009
Safe in a Crazy World - Corrinne May
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tohyRS0mto&feature=related
I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me
It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
Sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tohyRS0mto&feature=related
I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me
It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
Sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
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things I thought of under the hot afternoon sun...
when we are not working, do we still suffer from Monday blues?
we should organise more exercise sessions for plushies. Instead of the weekly/fortnightly sessions at BB, let's go trek Henderson Waves. We want to take care of our bodies too right? So that we are not just brainy, we are also brawny.
When I am well, I have enough of myself to give to others, to attend to the needs of others. When I am not well, the amount of energy I have can only be for myself to maintain a normal front.
when we are not working, do we still suffer from Monday blues?
I hate visitations. I shall target to reach at 630p.m. The later I reach, the less time I will have to spend there.
I finished one bar of Toggi Chocolate bar and nearly finished a packet of fish keropok. Seems like I am PMSsing. but.....not that I don't eat like that on other days :P
when we are not working, do we still suffer from Monday blues?
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we should organise more exercise sessions for plushies. Instead of the weekly/fortnightly sessions at BB, let's go trek Henderson Waves. We want to take care of our bodies too right? So that we are not just brainy, we are also brawny.
When I am well, I have enough of myself to give to others, to attend to the needs of others. When I am not well, the amount of energy I have can only be for myself to maintain a normal front.
when we are not working, do we still suffer from Monday blues?
I hate visitations. I shall target to reach at 630p.m. The later I reach, the less time I will have to spend there.
I finished one bar of Toggi Chocolate bar and nearly finished a packet of fish keropok. Seems like I am PMSsing. but.....not that I don't eat like that on other days :P
when we are not working, do we still suffer from Monday blues?
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though I am very comfortable talking to aussiefreakshen,....
I beta stop fellowshipping over here and go talk to real people. :D
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a berry good reminder!
Do not put your trust in princes, in mortal men who cannot save. When their spirit departs, they return to the ground, on that very day their plans come to nothing.
Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord, his God, the maker of heaven and earth, the sea and everything in them - the Lord, who remains faithful forever.
Psalms 146:3-6
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Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord, his God, the maker of heaven and earth, the sea and everything in them - the Lord, who remains faithful forever.
Psalms 146:3-6
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on repeated mode
Everything in its time.
I duno how come I find so attractive the people whose heart and life are surrendered to God. Like I can fall head over heels with Corinne May if she was interested in me. haha.. like real.. And I was just listening to the lyrics of her song lor. So rubbish.
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I duno how come I find so attractive the people whose heart and life are surrendered to God. Like I can fall head over heels with Corinne May if she was interested in me. haha.. like real.. And I was just listening to the lyrics of her song lor. So rubbish.
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my very brief alone time
ya know what I like most about the CNY break?
Very smooth traffic to town, being alone, walking through a rather quiet Borders, taking my time to browse through the books and magazines, knowing that I do not have to go to work the next day.
This is made possible because, all the other shops at Wheelock are closed. Many people are having their post-reunion dinner fellowship somewhere, I do not have tasks to rush and complete and I am given time while waiting for my next appointment.
This feels like a true holiday.
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Very smooth traffic to town, being alone, walking through a rather quiet Borders, taking my time to browse through the books and magazines, knowing that I do not have to go to work the next day.
This is made possible because, all the other shops at Wheelock are closed. Many people are having their post-reunion dinner fellowship somewhere, I do not have tasks to rush and complete and I am given time while waiting for my next appointment.
This feels like a true holiday.
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Mantra for 2009
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine lilke stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life..."
Phil 2:14-16
difficult though, but will try (CEFC would say train) by the grace of God. For I can do everything through him who gives me strength (Phil 4:13)
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Phil 2:14-16
difficult though, but will try (CEFC would say train) by the grace of God. For I can do everything through him who gives me strength (Phil 4:13)
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Long foreplay
Nah. Not writing about the real thing, though I think one day, I will write a post about long foreplay.
This year, the Chinese Department got the real lion dance troupe to usher in the CNY. So they made a lot of noise and the kids made a big hoo ha about it. I thought the whole hall was going to come down when the doll with the big head started throwing sweets to the kids who were enthusiastically clambering over one another so they could have those sweets. Kids are actually easy to pacify.
Anywayz, the point I wanted to make was... the lion was up on stage, being coy about climbing up an inclined bench to set itself on top of the table. It was hesitating, running around, taking one step up the bench, one step down, dancing around the stage, looking at the audience, flirting with the audience.. and I was at the back of the hall, seated, waiting for the lion to finally get up the inclined bench, I was thinking... What a long long foreplay :)
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This year, the Chinese Department got the real lion dance troupe to usher in the CNY. So they made a lot of noise and the kids made a big hoo ha about it. I thought the whole hall was going to come down when the doll with the big head started throwing sweets to the kids who were enthusiastically clambering over one another so they could have those sweets. Kids are actually easy to pacify.
Anywayz, the point I wanted to make was... the lion was up on stage, being coy about climbing up an inclined bench to set itself on top of the table. It was hesitating, running around, taking one step up the bench, one step down, dancing around the stage, looking at the audience, flirting with the audience.. and I was at the back of the hall, seated, waiting for the lion to finally get up the inclined bench, I was thinking... What a long long foreplay :)
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
Great great break!
back from Port Dickson and Malacca. Fun!! These are things I will remember for a while!
hunting for coke light
a very violent S with her weapons
very cheap stuff
Kayaking @ Port Dickson
Frisbee on the beach
Table tennis
Durians by the street!
Talked a lot about relationships related matter
the Cha kway tiao and Hokkien Mee analogy
Shared our life stories
3 hours worship session
swimming and reading by the pool
ate and ate and ate
shopped and shopped
fantastic Holiday Inn hotel
Thanks for a fantastic time, babes! :)
God willing, I would like to take to utilise the long weekends to take more trips this year. Who's up for HK and Bali, and Cambodia, and Vietnam??
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hunting for coke light
a very violent S with her weapons
very cheap stuff
Kayaking @ Port Dickson
Frisbee on the beach
Table tennis
Durians by the street!
Talked a lot about relationships related matter
the Cha kway tiao and Hokkien Mee analogy
Shared our life stories
3 hours worship session
swimming and reading by the pool
ate and ate and ate
shopped and shopped
fantastic Holiday Inn hotel
Thanks for a fantastic time, babes! :)
God willing, I would like to take to utilise the long weekends to take more trips this year. Who's up for HK and Bali, and Cambodia, and Vietnam??
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Friday, January 23, 2009
I Love Linking Words!
Psalms 142:7
Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.
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Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.
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What I learnt
I hear some friends share that the two type of women they wouldn't date are straight women and women who had not been in a relationship before. I can understand their perspective and I do agree with them to some extent, but it doesnt' negate that fact that many of these women are in happy relationships that last longer than some other gay relationships.
I thought about a few friends I have in this journey of discovering themselves. They are learning new things about themselves after accepting their sexual orientation, learning about the type of partner they prefer, coming up with their convictions of how they want to live their lives, the person they want to be, the type of relationship which is good for them.. All these require some form of trial and error. Experience helps in helping to figure out what is good and what is not, that is if they are not already broken from negative experiences.
I am just praying that in the haphazard way of bumping around to find out about their new selves, that they do not say and do things that they would regret or break too many hearts in the process. I have to say though, that mistakes made and learnt from always have some value in them, that is if they are taken with the right perspective.
My advice is just to wait and let God, who knows who's best and what's best for you, bring someone into your path. Of course, in order not to miss what He has in store for you, stay close to Him so the mind and the heart can be aligned to His. He is never late.
This is one of my favourite song.
Everything In Its Time - Corinne May
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtOh-8zEUqA
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
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I thought about a few friends I have in this journey of discovering themselves. They are learning new things about themselves after accepting their sexual orientation, learning about the type of partner they prefer, coming up with their convictions of how they want to live their lives, the person they want to be, the type of relationship which is good for them.. All these require some form of trial and error. Experience helps in helping to figure out what is good and what is not, that is if they are not already broken from negative experiences.
I am just praying that in the haphazard way of bumping around to find out about their new selves, that they do not say and do things that they would regret or break too many hearts in the process. I have to say though, that mistakes made and learnt from always have some value in them, that is if they are taken with the right perspective.
My advice is just to wait and let God, who knows who's best and what's best for you, bring someone into your path. Of course, in order not to miss what He has in store for you, stay close to Him so the mind and the heart can be aligned to His. He is never late.
This is one of my favourite song.
Everything In Its Time - Corinne May
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtOh-8zEUqA
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Song of the Morning
While I was walking to work, this song ministered to me heaps. I am reminded how powerful the name of Jesus is once again. My heart was overwhelmed by a great sense of joy and my spirit was uplifted.
Majestic- Lincoln Brewster
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to You
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll sing...
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to You
And I will worship You
I will worship You
I will worship You (I will worship You, Oh God)
I will worship You
We will worship You (We will worship You, Oh God)
We will worship You
Majestic- Lincoln Brewster
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to You
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
Oh Lord, Our Lord, how majestic is Your name in all the earth
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll sing...
The heavens declare Your greatness
The oceans cry out to You
The mountains, they bow down before You
So I'll join with the earth and I'll give my praise to You
And I will worship You
I will worship You
I will worship You (I will worship You, Oh God)
I will worship You
We will worship You (We will worship You, Oh God)
We will worship You
6.59a.m. or 7.59a.m.?
ya know the part of the Straits Times when the ST photographers take random shots of what's happening in Singapore at either 6.59a.m. or 7.59a.m.? I thought that was a brilliant idea.
I have to be at work by 6.59a.m. every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. 7.10a.m. on tuesday and Thursday. Monday and Friday to lead the P5s and 6s for their morning runs, Wednesday to conduct a Math Test for my form class.
I am pretty sure, that some time down the toad, every teacher would be required to start work at 645a.m. everyday. I am so not a morning person.
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I have to be at work by 6.59a.m. every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. 7.10a.m. on tuesday and Thursday. Monday and Friday to lead the P5s and 6s for their morning runs, Wednesday to conduct a Math Test for my form class.
I am pretty sure, that some time down the toad, every teacher would be required to start work at 645a.m. everyday. I am so not a morning person.
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009
midnight reflection
it's amazing how God works really.
Just last week, while walking to work and worshipping, I prayed and thought about the CG and how it was been stabilising in the past 6 months in terms of the depth of friendships built. We have S, J, WL, H, M RSP coming in and settling in fast, adding on to the core group in PLUSH. I had been laying low in terms of reaching out in the LGBT community because I considered that the new people needed to bond.
I was just thinking about how different people in FCC are making a positive impact in the community. C and C and E for Women's Nite,C also for PPC, SL for her documentary, S and WL starting to make their presence felt at Sayoni, R, C, Z for all women's physical activities, M for her speed dating event.. everywhere.. I pray that all these people will be a light for the lost so they can know about Jesus.
On Sunday, FCC saw 7 new women visiting. It was great. Today, SZ brought a new friend and I think she will keep visiting. God brings the people in, with or without me. :) He is all mighty and powerful.
Today Miak's session reminded me that our reaching out shouldn't be just to LGBT community. We need to start letting the "mainstream" peeps know that there are gay christians around who love God, so they will know that we are really normal people who are not different from who they are. I am lining up the people I will tell about FCC and PLUSH and EZER soon. Pray for courage!
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Just last week, while walking to work and worshipping, I prayed and thought about the CG and how it was been stabilising in the past 6 months in terms of the depth of friendships built. We have S, J, WL, H, M RSP coming in and settling in fast, adding on to the core group in PLUSH. I had been laying low in terms of reaching out in the LGBT community because I considered that the new people needed to bond.
I was just thinking about how different people in FCC are making a positive impact in the community. C and C and E for Women's Nite,C also for PPC, SL for her documentary, S and WL starting to make their presence felt at Sayoni, R, C, Z for all women's physical activities, M for her speed dating event.. everywhere.. I pray that all these people will be a light for the lost so they can know about Jesus.
On Sunday, FCC saw 7 new women visiting. It was great. Today, SZ brought a new friend and I think she will keep visiting. God brings the people in, with or without me. :) He is all mighty and powerful.
Today Miak's session reminded me that our reaching out shouldn't be just to LGBT community. We need to start letting the "mainstream" peeps know that there are gay christians around who love God, so they will know that we are really normal people who are not different from who they are. I am lining up the people I will tell about FCC and PLUSH and EZER soon. Pray for courage!
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I like more than 24 hours in a day.
everyday, I have many thoughts, but I have no time to write them down.
Laterz.
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Laterz.
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Interesting read
How to do homework without throwing up - Trevor Romain
This is cute. I saw it in the school library, borrowed it and read it to the class. It took about 10 minutes but it is worth every minute. They thought it was funny but I think they got the point. At least I hope they do. I still have about 4 rascals who refuse to do their homework.
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This is cute. I saw it in the school library, borrowed it and read it to the class. It took about 10 minutes but it is worth every minute. They thought it was funny but I think they got the point. At least I hope they do. I still have about 4 rascals who refuse to do their homework.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
temporary hyperactive Syndrome
tonight is one of those rare Monday nights where I get time off. My tuition kid got a camp to attend at school so after a great game of badminton with S and J, I went for a massage and facial at Orchard Hotel.
The package is good because it is affordable. Each session averages out to be around $30. And that can be for 45 minutes of full body massage or 45 minutes of facial amongst other treatments. THere is also free parking at Orchard Hotel. So it's all good. :)
Anywayz, the full body massage helped unknot those very tight spots around my shoulders and neck. My stiff neck's better. So yay. I can check my blind spot easily when I drive. I napped and snored a few times. The facial session was a bit funny though. I think that lady's new. She didn't have good fingers. Clumsy. Even in my semi-conscious state, I could feel her fumble and drip and drop stuff. Heh. But the spurts of power naps were good. Maybe that's why I am writing so much now.
I am glad to be able to feel more relaxed and not spend more money on retail therapy-ing. Work has been kind of tough and busy. This week would not be easy to pass too but I look forward to meeting up with PLUSH, EZER, and finally the weekend trip just to chill and rest. That should energize moi.
I am having fun at work when I teach. So that's good. THe marking's coming in fast and furious though. That means I need to do some homework - work done at home. That's not too good.
I need to get back to the system of having regular QT. That is something that is important and of eternal value. Yoohoo! Can't wait! :)
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The package is good because it is affordable. Each session averages out to be around $30. And that can be for 45 minutes of full body massage or 45 minutes of facial amongst other treatments. THere is also free parking at Orchard Hotel. So it's all good. :)
Anywayz, the full body massage helped unknot those very tight spots around my shoulders and neck. My stiff neck's better. So yay. I can check my blind spot easily when I drive. I napped and snored a few times. The facial session was a bit funny though. I think that lady's new. She didn't have good fingers. Clumsy. Even in my semi-conscious state, I could feel her fumble and drip and drop stuff. Heh. But the spurts of power naps were good. Maybe that's why I am writing so much now.
I am glad to be able to feel more relaxed and not spend more money on retail therapy-ing. Work has been kind of tough and busy. This week would not be easy to pass too but I look forward to meeting up with PLUSH, EZER, and finally the weekend trip just to chill and rest. That should energize moi.
I am having fun at work when I teach. So that's good. THe marking's coming in fast and furious though. That means I need to do some homework - work done at home. That's not too good.
I need to get back to the system of having regular QT. That is something that is important and of eternal value. Yoohoo! Can't wait! :)
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
i wanna i wanna i wanna
be a toy-r us kid.
Not.
Just a tune that caught on.
I just attended my DG mate's wedding. So happy for her, that she found the love of her life and married him.
I saw a couple of PLUs, some from my church, some not. 2 guys who are from Covenant ( I am very sure they were gay) are attached, to girls! Maybe it's better for them. I hope it is better for them. I thought about my ADGL, how at her age of 32 she has not been in any r/s and how she is very affectionate with other women, which leads me to speculate that she just might have that inclination afterall but I also feel that if they have not discovered that part of themselves, it's better that they don't. It will save them many unnecessary problems, provided they do not decide to take the other path after they get married.
This also makes me think. and reminds me that my role is not to help straight people discover their orientation. I personally feel that's wrong. My desire at this point in time is to help christian gay women who had fallen away from God realise that God loves them and does not condemn them, and He wants more than anything else that we walk in a dependable and intimate relationship with Him, whoever, whatever, wherever we are. My desire at this point in time is to help these women find spiritual support where they can be real and authentic and start to grow and serve in God's community of believers.
Church tomorrow. Yay! :)
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Not.
Just a tune that caught on.
I just attended my DG mate's wedding. So happy for her, that she found the love of her life and married him.
I saw a couple of PLUs, some from my church, some not. 2 guys who are from Covenant ( I am very sure they were gay) are attached, to girls! Maybe it's better for them. I hope it is better for them. I thought about my ADGL, how at her age of 32 she has not been in any r/s and how she is very affectionate with other women, which leads me to speculate that she just might have that inclination afterall but I also feel that if they have not discovered that part of themselves, it's better that they don't. It will save them many unnecessary problems, provided they do not decide to take the other path after they get married.
This also makes me think. and reminds me that my role is not to help straight people discover their orientation. I personally feel that's wrong. My desire at this point in time is to help christian gay women who had fallen away from God realise that God loves them and does not condemn them, and He wants more than anything else that we walk in a dependable and intimate relationship with Him, whoever, whatever, wherever we are. My desire at this point in time is to help these women find spiritual support where they can be real and authentic and start to grow and serve in God's community of believers.
Church tomorrow. Yay! :)
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Friday, January 16, 2009
A student
I have a student. He's smart, athletic, and cute. His name is Aaron Solomon. With a name like that, I know why he's smart, athletic and cute. :) And he's only 8, but he's mature for his age.
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getting back to my exercise routine
Wednesday 7/1 - Gym
Thursday 8/1 - Tennis
Saturday 10/1 - Gym
Monday 12/1 - Badminton
Thursday 15/1 - Tennis
Friday 16/1 - Badminton
Monday 19/1 - Badminton
I hope this can go on. I like!
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Thursday 8/1 - Tennis
Saturday 10/1 - Gym
Monday 12/1 - Badminton
Thursday 15/1 - Tennis
Friday 16/1 - Badminton
Monday 19/1 - Badminton
I hope this can go on. I like!
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
I stand amazed, I stand in awe, I stand forgiven.
"Only you, you died to set me free
Now I'm yours, for all eternity"
Only You- NCC
People say that if anyone can prove that the resurrection of Jesus Christ is not real, Christianity is a faith in vain.
For me, I know that even if someone proves that the resurrection of Jesus Christ is not real, I would still believe because I have experienced Him in many many ways. And I am not the only one who has experienced His faithfulness.
Just today, one cg member shared about how her prayer about finding free accommodation in Sydney and Brissy has been answered.
Then 10 minutes ago, another cg member shared that God confirmed a job just this afternoon with the only company she went for an interview with. $800 transport allowance somemore.. God is so good.
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Now I'm yours, for all eternity"
Only You- NCC
People say that if anyone can prove that the resurrection of Jesus Christ is not real, Christianity is a faith in vain.
For me, I know that even if someone proves that the resurrection of Jesus Christ is not real, I would still believe because I have experienced Him in many many ways. And I am not the only one who has experienced His faithfulness.
Just today, one cg member shared about how her prayer about finding free accommodation in Sydney and Brissy has been answered.
Then 10 minutes ago, another cg member shared that God confirmed a job just this afternoon with the only company she went for an interview with. $800 transport allowance somemore.. God is so good.
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from my student's journal
"When I stepped into the class, I felt like crying because I was afraid of the teacher, Ms See. She then told us about the class rules. I then realised that Ms See isn't that scary, she just wanted to do the best for the class. "
Poor girl.. :P
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Poor girl.. :P
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
releasing the thoughts in my mind..
how come the singapore never gets that wave of cold air that brings the temperature to below 20 degrees celsius? I so want to fly to BKK now..
But it has been pretty windy the past 2 days.
and isnt Jiawei the one who was engaged to Susilo? Now we know why they broke up. I think its one of the most sucky reason to break up, if it is because of a 3rd party. I remembered she gave the reason that Susilo was stingy, and Susilo's friend said that she is a spendthrift. Blah blah. Money is so important eh?
in the past week, I have encountered 2 friends with money issues. It's kinda sad.
I have spoken to 5 parents over the past 3 days. One parent said he can't do anything to motivate his child to study. And he insisted that I cane his child. He wants me to lose my livelihood izzit? My P shared that teachers are getting more innovative in punishing students. One teacher asked the student for permission to hit him, the student said okay. And she hit him! ????? Duh.
The bottomline is this, if you lay hands on the students, it is your fault, whether permission is given to you by the parents or the students or not.
I got a new reporting officer. My P said that if we are not happy with our reporting officer, go to her and we can have a discussion and see what can be done. She offered herself as a reporting officer. I was tempted to learn under her. I have no doubt that my growth as a teacher would be exponential, but she's a perfectionist lor. Sure die wan. I don't want my entire life to be consumed by work.
Not that I have anything against my current reporting officer, but she doesn't give me good vibes.
My ex-reporting officer told me in front of another teacher that I am one of her best supervisees. If it is true, I give thanks, but I don't feel that she's sincere. So I asked," Are u sure?" She replied, " Ya, true, if you don't believe, look at your performance bonus this year." If it is true, I give thanks again (thinking about my holiday in June and where I want to go :). And if it is true, i am still in awe why I deserve what I do. I wanted to ask her again," Are u sure? My performance bonus was already very high last year leh. " I decided not to push my luck.
A good leader is hard to find. A good leader empowers you. A good leader cares about your growth and guides you to reach your potential. A good leader sets a good example. A good leader is humble yet firm. A good leader is teachable and believes in continual learning for herself/himself. My P is one fine example of a good leader.
I am so tired....
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But it has been pretty windy the past 2 days.
and isnt Jiawei the one who was engaged to Susilo? Now we know why they broke up. I think its one of the most sucky reason to break up, if it is because of a 3rd party. I remembered she gave the reason that Susilo was stingy, and Susilo's friend said that she is a spendthrift. Blah blah. Money is so important eh?
in the past week, I have encountered 2 friends with money issues. It's kinda sad.
I have spoken to 5 parents over the past 3 days. One parent said he can't do anything to motivate his child to study. And he insisted that I cane his child. He wants me to lose my livelihood izzit? My P shared that teachers are getting more innovative in punishing students. One teacher asked the student for permission to hit him, the student said okay. And she hit him! ????? Duh.
The bottomline is this, if you lay hands on the students, it is your fault, whether permission is given to you by the parents or the students or not.
I got a new reporting officer. My P said that if we are not happy with our reporting officer, go to her and we can have a discussion and see what can be done. She offered herself as a reporting officer. I was tempted to learn under her. I have no doubt that my growth as a teacher would be exponential, but she's a perfectionist lor. Sure die wan. I don't want my entire life to be consumed by work.
Not that I have anything against my current reporting officer, but she doesn't give me good vibes.
My ex-reporting officer told me in front of another teacher that I am one of her best supervisees. If it is true, I give thanks, but I don't feel that she's sincere. So I asked," Are u sure?" She replied, " Ya, true, if you don't believe, look at your performance bonus this year." If it is true, I give thanks again (thinking about my holiday in June and where I want to go :). And if it is true, i am still in awe why I deserve what I do. I wanted to ask her again," Are u sure? My performance bonus was already very high last year leh. " I decided not to push my luck.
A good leader is hard to find. A good leader empowers you. A good leader cares about your growth and guides you to reach your potential. A good leader sets a good example. A good leader is humble yet firm. A good leader is teachable and believes in continual learning for herself/himself. My P is one fine example of a good leader.
I am so tired....
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Now life can move on..
Time seems to stand still whenever I have to prepare for facilitation. I get quite stressed though not to the point of being in distress. But praying helps heaps. I am thankful it is done and feedback was good.
Now I can relax and answer questions like such. Thanks to M. :) Taken from her site.
1. What/who makes you happy and unhappy?
Going for PLUSH makes me happy. Hanging out with the gals make me happy. Holidays make me happy. Many things make me happy. I am generally a happy person.
What makes me unhappy? When I am accused unjustly. Unpleasant conversations. When someone says something hurting.
2. Have you moved a step up in terms of career, friends, family or love life?
Career-yes, involuntarily though
Friends- yes yes, authentic friendships
family-yes, more time spent at home
love life- yes, I have learnt a lot from past experiences
3. What/who inspires you?
Anyone who aspires for excellence without compromising on integrity/character inspires me!
4. Biggest mistake of 2008
Getting involved with someone special whom I was not ready to be in a relationship with.
5. Greatest achievement of 2008
must be graduating from IDT. I never imagined I could go through all 2 years of it.
6. Have you met meaningful people?
I don't quite understand this question.
7. Have you travelled to beautiful places?
Yes I have, I have , I have. And I still think Australia is one of the most beautiful place, ever.
8. Have you spent enough time with loved ones?
No.. I pray for more time and better prioritising of time.
9. Is it time for a new hobby or a new pet?
Yeh.. I want to pick up a new skill, learn a new instrument. I don't want a new pet, unless I am moving out, because I am into adopting mongrels.
10. Has it been a while since you donated to a charity?
Nope.
11. Is it time for an image overhaul?
not really. is it?
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Now I can relax and answer questions like such. Thanks to M. :) Taken from her site.
1. What/who makes you happy and unhappy?
Going for PLUSH makes me happy. Hanging out with the gals make me happy. Holidays make me happy. Many things make me happy. I am generally a happy person.
What makes me unhappy? When I am accused unjustly. Unpleasant conversations. When someone says something hurting.
2. Have you moved a step up in terms of career, friends, family or love life?
Career-yes, involuntarily though
Friends- yes yes, authentic friendships
family-yes, more time spent at home
love life- yes, I have learnt a lot from past experiences
3. What/who inspires you?
Anyone who aspires for excellence without compromising on integrity/character inspires me!
4. Biggest mistake of 2008
Getting involved with someone special whom I was not ready to be in a relationship with.
5. Greatest achievement of 2008
must be graduating from IDT. I never imagined I could go through all 2 years of it.
6. Have you met meaningful people?
I don't quite understand this question.
7. Have you travelled to beautiful places?
Yes I have, I have , I have. And I still think Australia is one of the most beautiful place, ever.
8. Have you spent enough time with loved ones?
No.. I pray for more time and better prioritising of time.
9. Is it time for a new hobby or a new pet?
Yeh.. I want to pick up a new skill, learn a new instrument. I don't want a new pet, unless I am moving out, because I am into adopting mongrels.
10. Has it been a while since you donated to a charity?
Nope.
11. Is it time for an image overhaul?
not really. is it?
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
a fruitful day
I feel very productive today.
I went to Covenant
I met my dg mates. Missed them.
I went to FCC
I had lunch with the FCC women
I helped with spring cleaning @ FCC
I fellowshipped with the gay men
I fellowshipped again with the FCC women
I bought my green dress
I bought Kenny Rogers Corn Muffins (YUMMY!!)
I pumped petrol
I spent time at home
I am doing my prep for facilitation on Tues now.
What a great Sunday! :)
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I went to Covenant
I met my dg mates. Missed them.
I went to FCC
I had lunch with the FCC women
I helped with spring cleaning @ FCC
I fellowshipped with the gay men
I fellowshipped again with the FCC women
I bought my green dress
I bought Kenny Rogers Corn Muffins (YUMMY!!)
I pumped petrol
I spent time at home
I am doing my prep for facilitation on Tues now.
What a great Sunday! :)
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
L word Season 5!
This is another reason why I look forward to Tuesdays now.
I wanna play badminton! Jio me please. I accept any badminton dates!
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I wanna play badminton! Jio me please. I accept any badminton dates!
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Reading of the day
It is not very often that a message from spending time with God sticks with me for more than a few hours.
Pslams 141
3 Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth;
keep watch over the door of my lips!
4 Do not let my heart incline to any evil,
to busy myself with wicked deeds
5 Let a righteous man strike me—it is a kindness;
let him rebuke me—it is oil for my head;
let my head not refuse it.
Yet my prayer is continually against their evil deeds.
8 But my eyes are toward you, O God, my Lord;
in you I seek refuge; leave me not defenseless!
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Pslams 141
3 Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth;
keep watch over the door of my lips!
4 Do not let my heart incline to any evil,
to busy myself with wicked deeds
5 Let a righteous man strike me—it is a kindness;
let him rebuke me—it is oil for my head;
let my head not refuse it.
Yet my prayer is continually against their evil deeds.
8 But my eyes are toward you, O God, my Lord;
in you I seek refuge; leave me not defenseless!
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I am off to.................................... :)
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BB
I was glad there wasn't CG last night so I could join the gals earlier at BB. It was a good night. About 13-14 of us went, half of them went to Taboo during the later part of the night. Having seen quite a bit of movement in and out of PLUSH, it was really nice catching up with the people I used to spend more time with.
As I looked at J and C and J and R, I understood from a different perspective about the way they work. They are great assets to FCC. I marvel at the way they give of themselves to pioneering new groups, activities and programmes. We need people like that to move things. I only pray that they move not at their own pace but as God leads, because it is only when they are following God's leading that results are efficacious, not just efficient or effective.
I also pray that they will not stop getting their spiritual food and strength from the source that will lead them, refresh them and empower them. I have heard far too many stories about people who suffers from spiritual burn out" because their focus is on their work and their programmes rather than on God.
Saw E, the old Alternative Bar owner last night, as a customer. I spoke to her a bit, and was thankful that nothing happened between us, hearing about the women in her life. She was actually the first woman I met on Fridae. Saw J too, a friend of J. Met a new online friend for the first time too.
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As I looked at J and C and J and R, I understood from a different perspective about the way they work. They are great assets to FCC. I marvel at the way they give of themselves to pioneering new groups, activities and programmes. We need people like that to move things. I only pray that they move not at their own pace but as God leads, because it is only when they are following God's leading that results are efficacious, not just efficient or effective.
I also pray that they will not stop getting their spiritual food and strength from the source that will lead them, refresh them and empower them. I have heard far too many stories about people who suffers from spiritual burn out" because their focus is on their work and their programmes rather than on God.
Saw E, the old Alternative Bar owner last night, as a customer. I spoke to her a bit, and was thankful that nothing happened between us, hearing about the women in her life. She was actually the first woman I met on Fridae. Saw J too, a friend of J. Met a new online friend for the first time too.
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My 1st Week
I set a rather challenging task for the kids in my English class, something I absolutely would hate to do, simply because it is tedious. Not difficult, just tedious. But their results will definitely improve if they persist in doing this well for the rest of the year.
Will see on Monday if this class has the potential to be pushed harder by the quality of work they hand in, if they hand in, that is. I was actually quite impressed with most of them by the way they completed their tasks this week. Except for a few, most of them seemed to be trying hard. I got to be careful not to let them suffer from burnout though. They still have next year to go.
Aside from the administrative matters, the planning and the sending of the many mass emails relating to my role as a HE Coord and Eng Rep, I am quite enjoying my teaching classes. :) This wraps up my first week. CCA and remedial classes start next week. I am looking forward to the CNY break.
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Will see on Monday if this class has the potential to be pushed harder by the quality of work they hand in, if they hand in, that is. I was actually quite impressed with most of them by the way they completed their tasks this week. Except for a few, most of them seemed to be trying hard. I got to be careful not to let them suffer from burnout though. They still have next year to go.
Aside from the administrative matters, the planning and the sending of the many mass emails relating to my role as a HE Coord and Eng Rep, I am quite enjoying my teaching classes. :) This wraps up my first week. CCA and remedial classes start next week. I am looking forward to the CNY break.
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I checked
Tickets to Malaysia are out. Boohoo. Got to think of another retreat plan.
My pretty muslim married colleague asked me about my travel plans. I told her I was not sure. Z said she will prolly go back to Germany next year. I guess I will tag along to Germany mid year june if nothing crops up.
As for this year, we will seeeeee, but no more aussieland :D
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My pretty muslim married colleague asked me about my travel plans. I told her I was not sure. Z said she will prolly go back to Germany next year. I guess I will tag along to Germany mid year june if nothing crops up.
As for this year, we will seeeeee, but no more aussieland :D
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I am blessed!
wah. I was just catching up with a friend who teaches in a secondary school. She said that her classes take up 25 hours per week. That is excluding administrative matters, marking, CCAs, and extra classes..
my lessons take about 18 hours per week. With marking, extra classes, CCAs, lesson prep and other administrative matters, I think my total working hours per week would be 35 hours maximum?
That is an average 7 hours per day. but 7 intensive hours. Still, I feel blessed. :)
God is good!
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my lessons take about 18 hours per week. With marking, extra classes, CCAs, lesson prep and other administrative matters, I think my total working hours per week would be 35 hours maximum?
That is an average 7 hours per day. but 7 intensive hours. Still, I feel blessed. :)
God is good!
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
Sapphire Gordon Blue Gin + Tonic Water
and so, I felt like a drink tonight. At the safe comfort of my home. I bought a can of tonic water, hoping to mix it with something from my Dad's collection. The only possible one I saw was Sapphire Blue Gin. I considered mixing the tonic water with the Vodka Ruby Red but didn't want to spoil my perfect collection. So. Blue gin and Tonic water it was.
A glass of ice, one third glass of gin, and the other 2/3 tonic water. I asked my mum if she wanted one and she did. My dad was giving me that look (Hmm.. what's wrong with her?) kinda look. That suspicious look because I rarely drink at home. I asked him if he wanted one too. Heeeheee.
I am reading.. preparing for next week's facilitation while being filled with the spirit. Teehee.
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A glass of ice, one third glass of gin, and the other 2/3 tonic water. I asked my mum if she wanted one and she did. My dad was giving me that look (Hmm.. what's wrong with her?) kinda look. That suspicious look because I rarely drink at home. I asked him if he wanted one too. Heeeheee.
I am reading.. preparing for next week's facilitation while being filled with the spirit. Teehee.
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I got MILKed!
saw another student this morning. I miss them!
Random thoughts that ran through my head through the screening of MILK.
-It's ideal to have a partner with the same values, beliefs and passion in life.
-Don't get involved with any Jane, Sue and Mary.
-I used to ask myself why make a big deal out of everything, when we could be peace-loving. I realised last night that someone has got to do it. So kudos to the activists who fights for our rights though I still feel uncomfortable having to go against the government. Is there not a way to make ourselves known without going against the government and the church of God?
-One day, when I am ready, I will come out so that my friends/family would know at least one who is not perverse or too weird.
-I am really thankful for FCC as the only gay affirming church in Singapore. Now, the sermons do not matter as much to as them providing a home for the lost who turned away from God because they are gay. God's purposes will stand as long as His people look to Him. And FCC is really getting better.
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Random thoughts that ran through my head through the screening of MILK.
-It's ideal to have a partner with the same values, beliefs and passion in life.
-Don't get involved with any Jane, Sue and Mary.
-I used to ask myself why make a big deal out of everything, when we could be peace-loving. I realised last night that someone has got to do it. So kudos to the activists who fights for our rights though I still feel uncomfortable having to go against the government. Is there not a way to make ourselves known without going against the government and the church of God?
-One day, when I am ready, I will come out so that my friends/family would know at least one who is not perverse or too weird.
-I am really thankful for FCC as the only gay affirming church in Singapore. Now, the sermons do not matter as much to as them providing a home for the lost who turned away from God because they are gay. God's purposes will stand as long as His people look to Him. And FCC is really getting better.
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Monday, January 5, 2009
my ex-students and my current ones
the 4 heavenly kings have not acted up yet. On the other hand, I am quite tired of having to speak to the kids with a stern tone but it's so easy to teach them when they are not talking unnecessarily.
I bumped into 3 of my ex-students on my way to work on 2 different occasions. It's nice to see them running towards me to say hi, smiling broadly to me. Sigh. That warms my heart. And 2 others just told me yesterday and today that they miss me. So sweet.
I am contented. :)
It was interesting meeting M at FCC. He actually is marketing his own programmes combining the teaching of English and Music. I like that. Will prolly meet up with him soon to see if his programmes are appropriate for the school. Then we both get to benefit.
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I bumped into 3 of my ex-students on my way to work on 2 different occasions. It's nice to see them running towards me to say hi, smiling broadly to me. Sigh. That warms my heart. And 2 others just told me yesterday and today that they miss me. So sweet.
I am contented. :)
It was interesting meeting M at FCC. He actually is marketing his own programmes combining the teaching of English and Music. I like that. Will prolly meet up with him soon to see if his programmes are appropriate for the school. Then we both get to benefit.
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I got my first demerit points after 10 years of driving
$150 fine and 6 demerit points. Speed limit @ Brickland Road (the new very empty piece of 3 laned road) is 60km/hr. The mobile camera claimed that I was travelling at 88km/hr. They were prolly right. I often have to rush for tuition using that road.
I appealed but they didn't even lighten the sentence lor....
I am a little upset with myself. More because of the $150 which could get me some ink (semi-kidding) Was just talking to a friend about his new inked deltoid which he paid $120 for.
Sigh. That is like 15 booklets of coupons/3 fuelling up sessions/3 months cashcard worth.
Speaking of which, did you notice that coupon parking is the only type of parking that has not increased in cost?
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I appealed but they didn't even lighten the sentence lor....
I am a little upset with myself. More because of the $150 which could get me some ink (semi-kidding) Was just talking to a friend about his new inked deltoid which he paid $120 for.
Sigh. That is like 15 booklets of coupons/3 fuelling up sessions/3 months cashcard worth.
Speaking of which, did you notice that coupon parking is the only type of parking that has not increased in cost?
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Sunday, January 4, 2009
THE highlight of today
I teared as I was praying for N today. I was rather baffled because...
1) I wasn't close to her.
2) I was slightly amused when she was sharing very dramatically about how she felt. (I know that was horrible, but I couldn't help that I found it funny. )
3) I don't really have a good impression of her.
She needs to experience the love of Jesus. And I feel that it would be most effective if this love is shown through the actions of others.
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1) I wasn't close to her.
2) I was slightly amused when she was sharing very dramatically about how she felt. (I know that was horrible, but I couldn't help that I found it funny. )
3) I don't really have a good impression of her.
She needs to experience the love of Jesus. And I feel that it would be most effective if this love is shown through the actions of others.
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
Questions from L word Season 6 Ep 1
Shenny = Shane + Jenny?? Yeeks.
how is Alice able to change her car so often? Where does she get her money from?
How can people stand the pain of being cheated on by the person whom they love deeply?
Is Nikki really in love with Jenny?
Is it possible to be in love with someone else and yet be in a relationship with someone else?
How come it is all so complicated?
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how is Alice able to change her car so often? Where does she get her money from?
How can people stand the pain of being cheated on by the person whom they love deeply?
Is Nikki really in love with Jenny?
Is it possible to be in love with someone else and yet be in a relationship with someone else?
How come it is all so complicated?
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so sweet- bette and tina
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ga0kGC0kqIQ&feature=related
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart
You'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still…forever
You are the sun
You are my life
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're alwayz round
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still…forever
We've had our fun
We've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed
That long that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more
That I could have give (I could have give)
You make loving you
So easy for me
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Wanna spend forever with you
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I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart
You'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still…forever
You are the sun
You are my life
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're alwayz round
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still…forever
We've had our fun
We've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed
That long that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more
That I could have give (I could have give)
You make loving you
So easy for me
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Wanna spend forever with you
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haha..
and so I dictionary.com-ed sexual intercourse.
Very inaccurate lor. Sexual intercourse doesn't always result in orgasm. Maybe the person who came up with these definitions is a man. :P
and the definition is limited to hetersexual sexual intercourse.
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sexual intercourse - 5 dictionary results
sexual intercourse
–noun genital contact, esp. the insertion of the penis into the vagina followed by orgasm; coitus; copulation.
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Origin:
1790–1800
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.
Cite This Source
Language Translation for : sexual intercourse
Spanish: relaciones sexuales, German: der Geschlechtsverkehr, Japanese: 性交
View 30 other languages »
sexual intercourse
n.
Coitus between humans.
Sexual union between humans involving genital contact other than vaginal penetration by the penis.
The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition
Copyright © 2006 by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
Cite This Source
sexual intercourse
noun
the act of sexual procreation between a man and a woman; the man's penis is inserted into the woman's vagina and excited until orgasm and ejaculation occur
WordNet® 3.0, © 2006 by Princeton University.
Cite This Source
sexual intercourse n.
Coitus between humans.
Sexual union between humans involving genital contact other than vaginal penetration by the penis.
The American Heritage® Stedman's Medical Dictionary
Copyright © 2002, 2001, 1995 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Cite This Source
Main Entry: sexual intercourse
Function: noun
1 : heterosexual intercourse involving penetration of the vagina by the penis : COITUS
2 : intercourse involving genital contact between individuals other than penetration of the vagina bythe penis
Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.
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Very inaccurate lor. Sexual intercourse doesn't always result in orgasm. Maybe the person who came up with these definitions is a man. :P
and the definition is limited to hetersexual sexual intercourse.
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sexual intercourse - 5 dictionary results
sexual intercourse
–noun genital contact, esp. the insertion of the penis into the vagina followed by orgasm; coitus; copulation.
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Origin:
1790–1800
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.
Cite This Source
Language Translation for : sexual intercourse
Spanish: relaciones sexuales, German: der Geschlechtsverkehr, Japanese: 性交
View 30 other languages »
sexual intercourse
n.
Coitus between humans.
Sexual union between humans involving genital contact other than vaginal penetration by the penis.
The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition
Copyright © 2006 by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
Cite This Source
sexual intercourse
noun
the act of sexual procreation between a man and a woman; the man's penis is inserted into the woman's vagina and excited until orgasm and ejaculation occur
WordNet® 3.0, © 2006 by Princeton University.
Cite This Source
sexual intercourse n.
Coitus between humans.
Sexual union between humans involving genital contact other than vaginal penetration by the penis.
The American Heritage® Stedman's Medical Dictionary
Copyright © 2002, 2001, 1995 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Cite This Source
Main Entry: sexual intercourse
Function: noun
1 : heterosexual intercourse involving penetration of the vagina by the penis : COITUS
2 : intercourse involving genital contact between individuals other than penetration of the vagina bythe penis
Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.
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why no to pre-marital sex
A friend was just chatting with me on that post about the catholic church when she explained why the catholic church would never relent and why the church says no to pre-marital sex.
1) the first point is about abstainance from sex helps you to know your partner better(which we all know)
2) this type of discipline strengthens us in times of temptations with our spouse or partner. She further elaborated by saying that if people jump into the sack to give in to their desires, and when the couple has problems and a 3rd party comes in,the person will not have the strength to resist.
The second reason makes much sense.
So if I have bad self-control, it means the likelyhood of me getting into an affair is higher? :( That's bad hor.
but what is the definition of sex anyway? Going all the way? I dictionary.com-ed the word sex, there were 15 definitions and none gave the details I needed. Their explanation just went as far as sexual intercourse. Sigh.
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1) the first point is about abstainance from sex helps you to know your partner better(which we all know)
2) this type of discipline strengthens us in times of temptations with our spouse or partner. She further elaborated by saying that if people jump into the sack to give in to their desires, and when the couple has problems and a 3rd party comes in,the person will not have the strength to resist.
The second reason makes much sense.
So if I have bad self-control, it means the likelyhood of me getting into an affair is higher? :( That's bad hor.
but what is the definition of sex anyway? Going all the way? I dictionary.com-ed the word sex, there were 15 definitions and none gave the details I needed. Their explanation just went as far as sexual intercourse. Sigh.
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duno what title to put
I am really hopeless shopping for toddler's stuff. The last few presents I bought for my goddaughter the dress, sandals, the new year clothings. I think I better stick to buying toys. :(
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
sad
I love my brother so much that I think about buying things for him a lot, even when he doesn't ask me too. I am only thankful he's not a spoilt 15 year old. I am thankful too, that I am employed.
While I was queuing up to pay for my purchases at Popular Bookstore, I heard 3 kids pleading with their mother to buy stationery for them. I pitied the mum when I saw the amount of stationery in their shopping baskets.
I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness for the parents who are unemployed and parents who only earn enough to put food on the table. Most parents who are poor materially mostly do not have high education. They are proud that their children are still in school. Coupled with the fact that they love their children much, not being able to buy what their children want must have broken their hearts. So sad hor.
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While I was queuing up to pay for my purchases at Popular Bookstore, I heard 3 kids pleading with their mother to buy stationery for them. I pitied the mum when I saw the amount of stationery in their shopping baskets.
I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness for the parents who are unemployed and parents who only earn enough to put food on the table. Most parents who are poor materially mostly do not have high education. They are proud that their children are still in school. Coupled with the fact that they love their children much, not being able to buy what their children want must have broken their hearts. So sad hor.
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