and at peace with it.
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Monday, November 30, 2009
What a lovely day!
woke up without an alarm * Brekkie @ home * Gym with ex-colleague * Lunch and catch up * spontaneous worship and prayer session (with ex-colleague - awesome) * Lazing * Meeting the SH!
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Do I feel better?
Not yet.
There is a certain amount of respectability to maintain since I am writing on public space.
when all I want to do is to
@#$%^&*()_+)(*&^%$#@!@#@!@#@!@#$@!@#$#@!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't curse. I just want to scream.
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There is a certain amount of respectability to maintain since I am writing on public space.
when all I want to do is to
@#$%^&*()_+)(*&^%$#@!@#@!@#@!@#$@!@#$#@!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't curse. I just want to scream.
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Dear God,
Why do some not understand me
And those who understand, ain't always around
Why are they not able to see my heart
And those who see, remain silent
Why is it wrong to run away from something that is bad for my soul
Why do I get affected by issues that I cannot do anything about
Why do I mull over matters that aren't good for me
Why do I feel so deeply and think so much
Because I am only human.
I have emotions
and I am no saint.
Yet I know the consequences of venting.
What good does it do to those who hear?
Nothing.
In situations like such
is this called sacrificial
or is it pure silliness
Yes, God. I am still waiting for your answer.
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And those who understand, ain't always around
Why are they not able to see my heart
And those who see, remain silent
Why is it wrong to run away from something that is bad for my soul
Why do I get affected by issues that I cannot do anything about
Why do I mull over matters that aren't good for me
Why do I feel so deeply and think so much
Because I am only human.
I have emotions
and I am no saint.
Yet I know the consequences of venting.
What good does it do to those who hear?
Nothing.
In situations like such
is this called sacrificial
or is it pure silliness
Yes, God. I am still waiting for your answer.
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Exercise Schedule for the week
Yoga after a month's break was awesome. I felt aches on my deltoids, my trapezious, and inner thighs on Saturday evening. By Sunday morning, I felt my hamstrings and abdominal muscles ache. 1 month of regular badminton didn't even give me those aches. I enjoy badminton more though. The SH thinks it is amusing that I go to the toilet halfway during yoga so I can take a break.
I was supposed to rock climb with 3 others today but I ended up just watching them (change). Need to rest my aching muscles.
Mon - Gym with ex-colleague
Tues - Makan!
Wed - Tennis
THursday - Badminton
Friday - Badminton
Sat - Brissy!
It's Monday! But NO MORE MONDAY BLUES FOR 4 WEEKS! :)
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I was supposed to rock climb with 3 others today but I ended up just watching them (change). Need to rest my aching muscles.
Mon - Gym with ex-colleague
Tues - Makan!
Wed - Tennis
THursday - Badminton
Friday - Badminton
Sat - Brissy!
It's Monday! But NO MORE MONDAY BLUES FOR 4 WEEKS! :)
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Saturday, November 28, 2009
Mid week delight: Durians
the season is not ripe.
But some were good. So was the catch up with the group. Pity it was too short. The smell really lingers for close to 24 hours. It comes out from the body; the air, the fluid and the skin. Even I am grossed out.
But yummy lorrrrrr.
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But some were good. So was the catch up with the group. Pity it was too short. The smell really lingers for close to 24 hours. It comes out from the body; the air, the fluid and the skin. Even I am grossed out.
But yummy lorrrrrr.
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Been a recipient of money
$20 ang pow for helping my cousin out for her wedding ( That was 3 months ago?) My mum went for their housewarming bbq and came back with 2 ang pows. One for my sister and one for me.
That covered for dinner and drinks today. :D. We had dinner and movie with a dear friend. The BBQ chicken curry rice @ PS Kopitiam was fabulous. The queue was as long as it was the last time I bought food from the same stall. It's $4.80 for a slice of omelette, rice with the choice of curry gravy on top and yummy BBQ chicken. THe SH didn't like it because it was too sweet. She likes the Mr Pepper Beef but today's beef was overcooked because she was waiting for me so we could give thanks for the food together (and the queue for my food was loooooonnnnng). It was nice of her to wait.
We watched Fantastic Mr Fox together. I was very entertained throughout the movie. It was engaging and hilarious! I like how Mr Fox would ask for his wife's opinion and then give his own opinion and end up doing things his way. But he sandwiched it very well and never fails to compliment his wife for something. haha. Quite sweet.
Met 2 friends at PS. An ex JC classmate and a guy from Covenant who attended FCC once but never went back. I suspect he's closeted. Nebermind. Let him find his way.
The SH asked me how come I have so many friends. I also don't know. Technically, they are not my friends because we don't exchange more than a few lines of conversation a year.
Headed to Croc Rock after that, Singapore oldest lesbian pub. Both of them have neither been nor heard. It was rather empty and we had a good chat over drinks. Picked up my sister on the way home.
Wonderful day. :D God blessed day.
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That covered for dinner and drinks today. :D. We had dinner and movie with a dear friend. The BBQ chicken curry rice @ PS Kopitiam was fabulous. The queue was as long as it was the last time I bought food from the same stall. It's $4.80 for a slice of omelette, rice with the choice of curry gravy on top and yummy BBQ chicken. THe SH didn't like it because it was too sweet. She likes the Mr Pepper Beef but today's beef was overcooked because she was waiting for me so we could give thanks for the food together (and the queue for my food was loooooonnnnng). It was nice of her to wait.
We watched Fantastic Mr Fox together. I was very entertained throughout the movie. It was engaging and hilarious! I like how Mr Fox would ask for his wife's opinion and then give his own opinion and end up doing things his way. But he sandwiched it very well and never fails to compliment his wife for something. haha. Quite sweet.
Met 2 friends at PS. An ex JC classmate and a guy from Covenant who attended FCC once but never went back. I suspect he's closeted. Nebermind. Let him find his way.
The SH asked me how come I have so many friends. I also don't know. Technically, they are not my friends because we don't exchange more than a few lines of conversation a year.
Headed to Croc Rock after that, Singapore oldest lesbian pub. Both of them have neither been nor heard. It was rather empty and we had a good chat over drinks. Picked up my sister on the way home.
Wonderful day. :D God blessed day.
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Foot reflexology today..
was great. He is a very strong guy (the one with the wig as the SH would say)and he focused a lot on the soles of my feet. So shoik. Especially shoik after a 2 hour badminton session ( actually, we sat around to talk a quarter of the time) followed by the big prawn noodles @ Adam. I still think J's mum's recipe is the best. Yum. I LOVE PRAWN NOODLES!!
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Friday, November 27, 2009
Thank God for friends who dare to tell you the truth face to face
because it helps one improve to be a better person.
a friend commented that reading my badminton blog entries are boring. I appreciate the honesty. HEH.
another friend told me that it's important to make a stand and not sit on the fence. I appreciate the honesty too. :) And that had made me more aware of the things that I could have accepted or tolerated when I should not have. I have to pray for more wisdom to discern what is to tolerate and what not. It's a very very fine line to draw for in certain situations. Only God knows the heart of another.
I read something today which was insightful. It taught me again what is really really important: "Reputation" is what people think of you ; "character" is what God knows of you.
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a friend commented that reading my badminton blog entries are boring. I appreciate the honesty. HEH.
another friend told me that it's important to make a stand and not sit on the fence. I appreciate the honesty too. :) And that had made me more aware of the things that I could have accepted or tolerated when I should not have. I have to pray for more wisdom to discern what is to tolerate and what not. It's a very very fine line to draw for in certain situations. Only God knows the heart of another.
I read something today which was insightful. It taught me again what is really really important: "Reputation" is what people think of you ; "character" is what God knows of you.
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Verse of the day
Thus says the Lord: " Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, let not the mighty man glory in his might, let not the rich man glory in his riches; but let him who glories glory in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord who practises steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth; for in these things I delight, says the Lord."
Jeremiah 9:23-24
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Jeremiah 9:23-24
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
PSLE and more
highest scorer in my school was 280. That's an improvement from last year. We will do even better next year. Hiak Hiak. I am pretty pleased to know that both the Math and Sci teachers for my class will be changed next year. Both better teachers for my kids. Yippie!
My tuition student did well too. She scored 4As. She was so estastic because she didn't expect an A for both her Math and Science. She asked me to continue teaching her next year. Tempting but I don't think so. Her place is pretty inconvenient and I am not even sure if I am still driving the car next year.
I met my neighbour on my way home and she asked me to teach her daughter too ( I was supposed to start teaching her son in early December.). I told her I will think about it, because really, I am doing half load on half pay so I can rest, not so I can give tuition to earn more money.
I finally shifted all my barang out of my old hole to the new one. I have a new space at work. :)
A new beginning. I am actually looking forward to 2010!
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My tuition student did well too. She scored 4As. She was so estastic because she didn't expect an A for both her Math and Science. She asked me to continue teaching her next year. Tempting but I don't think so. Her place is pretty inconvenient and I am not even sure if I am still driving the car next year.
I met my neighbour on my way home and she asked me to teach her daughter too ( I was supposed to start teaching her son in early December.). I told her I will think about it, because really, I am doing half load on half pay so I can rest, not so I can give tuition to earn more money.
I finally shifted all my barang out of my old hole to the new one. I have a new space at work. :)
A new beginning. I am actually looking forward to 2010!
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
The Last Lecture
I am currently reading The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch. This book was recommended by my P.
The book tells of how Professor Randy Paush, having diagnosed with terminal cancer, wrote about the journey he took in preparing for his last lecture. In his book, as he was recalling the events in his life, he related some of the wisdom and insights he had gleaned from the people in his life.
This is quite a good read but as always, it still pales in comparison to the bible. Many books I have read/browsed through have not the wisdom that the bible holds. The books of today explains in detailed/ puts concrete examples to the concepts and insights already available in the bible. I don't remember getting the AHA! or WOW! experience reading any books in the past few years.
Wisdom works hand in hand with knowledge, but wisdom is far greater than knowledge. So I always pray for wisdom, like what King Solomon did. We will never go wrong asking for wisdom.
These questions are good questions that will make one think:
What wisdom would we impart to the world if we knew it was our last chance?
If we were to vanish tomorrow, what would we want as our legacy?
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The book tells of how Professor Randy Paush, having diagnosed with terminal cancer, wrote about the journey he took in preparing for his last lecture. In his book, as he was recalling the events in his life, he related some of the wisdom and insights he had gleaned from the people in his life.
This is quite a good read but as always, it still pales in comparison to the bible. Many books I have read/browsed through have not the wisdom that the bible holds. The books of today explains in detailed/ puts concrete examples to the concepts and insights already available in the bible. I don't remember getting the AHA! or WOW! experience reading any books in the past few years.
Wisdom works hand in hand with knowledge, but wisdom is far greater than knowledge. So I always pray for wisdom, like what King Solomon did. We will never go wrong asking for wisdom.
These questions are good questions that will make one think:
What wisdom would we impart to the world if we knew it was our last chance?
If we were to vanish tomorrow, what would we want as our legacy?
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Holden Convertible, here we come!
Booked a convertible for our stay @ Brissy and Gold Coast. Both our first time driving one. And it's just $120 AUD more for the entire 6 days as compared to the regular car. Why not? :)
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Giving thanks for blessings
I won $380.33 last week. $333.33 from the $1000 Outstanding Contribution Award (Team) shared with 2 other colleagues, and a $50 Isetan voucher for being voted Ms Health Junky. I am sure there were some protests around. :) ( I eat chocolate and snack quite a bit when I am marking @ work) but I do drink lots of green tea without sugar and squeeze the oil out of fried food too. :) I think I won the award because of the projects I have to promote for my job as a Health Coordinator. Anywayz, it's all good. Nobody glared at me or anything.. hehe..
J gave me a guitar tuner for my birthday this year. It is one of the best presents I have ever received in my life but I lost it about 2 months ago. I had thought I had left it in church but I could not find it the following week. Today, while I was practising for worship at home, I thought about A's prayer for her lost pass and how she amazingly got it back from her student's neighbour who picked it up @ the market near her place. So I said a word of prayer for the return of my tuner. Lo and behold, when I reached church tonight, I saw it at the stage. I am very certain it's mine because
1) No one has used that tuner for church before.
2) I have been looking around the stage for my tuner almost every Tuesday before CG and after church.
3) Most importantly, I prayed for it today!
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J gave me a guitar tuner for my birthday this year. It is one of the best presents I have ever received in my life but I lost it about 2 months ago. I had thought I had left it in church but I could not find it the following week. Today, while I was practising for worship at home, I thought about A's prayer for her lost pass and how she amazingly got it back from her student's neighbour who picked it up @ the market near her place. So I said a word of prayer for the return of my tuner. Lo and behold, when I reached church tonight, I saw it at the stage. I am very certain it's mine because
1) No one has used that tuner for church before.
2) I have been looking around the stage for my tuner almost every Tuesday before CG and after church.
3) Most importantly, I prayed for it today!
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
avis.com.au
I forgot to book our car for the Aussie trip. Am in the process of doing it now. Avis is always the trusted one. I am not sure if we should book one @ Sydney too. We are staying in a relatively central location but I do think we need one to get from the airport to our accommodation and back to the airport. It is most useful too if we drive to Hunter Valley so we could stop as and when we like.
Decisions decisions.
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Decisions decisions.
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Friendships
Friends are very important to me. Over the past few years, I am extremely thankful for the people that God has put in my life though there are one or two I wish I could meet more regularly.
I am especially super duper thankful for the friendships that I had formed with the gals from church and CG over the period of 2 years. The chemistry and understanding that I feel with some of them overwhelmes me from time to time. There is just something so precious about having like-minded souls opening up to one another, sharing lives with one another, both individually and collectively as a group that very few things can replace. I appreciate that so very much. It helps that we meet at least once a week.
I only pray that in time to come, we will be a cg not just bonded in love, but also bonded in the desire to keep one another accountable and help one another grow to be better disciples of Christ.
Going to meet some of them now. CG! :D
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I am especially super duper thankful for the friendships that I had formed with the gals from church and CG over the period of 2 years. The chemistry and understanding that I feel with some of them overwhelmes me from time to time. There is just something so precious about having like-minded souls opening up to one another, sharing lives with one another, both individually and collectively as a group that very few things can replace. I appreciate that so very much. It helps that we meet at least once a week.
I only pray that in time to come, we will be a cg not just bonded in love, but also bonded in the desire to keep one another accountable and help one another grow to be better disciples of Christ.
Going to meet some of them now. CG! :D
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wahahaha
More time for training. Texted and called M about the registration for the badminton competition and she finally responded to say that the tournament has been postponed till early next year. :) More time to practise. And my gut told me that the badminton tournament won't be on this Saturday actually. :)
But still, there is badminton tomorrow night, Thursday night and Friday morning. How awesome. I am starting to feel the holiday mood.
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But still, there is badminton tomorrow night, Thursday night and Friday morning. How awesome. I am starting to feel the holiday mood.
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blah blah
Finally finished learning the song that I am playing for K later for worship. Very touching lyrics.
Once again, after knowing of God's amazing and unchanging love for us, what should we do in response? How should we live our lives in worship and praise of Him? Would others see us as children of God transformed by His love, or children of God taking His love for granted, living carelessly?
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Once again, after knowing of God's amazing and unchanging love for us, what should we do in response? How should we live our lives in worship and praise of Him? Would others see us as children of God transformed by His love, or children of God taking His love for granted, living carelessly?
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Monday, November 23, 2009
Countdown: 5 days more to badminton tournament
I have been stepping down on training because I can feel my knees giving way. When I place my palm over my knee and extend my leg, I can hear not just a creaking sound, but sounds of glass breaking in my knee. I would love to see an xray of my knees right now :)
Training has been rather productive. I was just concerned that I have not been practising together with my partner for one reason or another. I am really incapable of writing anything other than relating the events of the day. Even so, I can't continue. My bed beckons.
Talk more when I am fully rested. Isqueeze's making strange noises. Night
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Training has been rather productive. I was just concerned that I have not been practising together with my partner for one reason or another. I am really incapable of writing anything other than relating the events of the day. Even so, I can't continue. My bed beckons.
Talk more when I am fully rested. Isqueeze's making strange noises. Night
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Countdown: 9 days more to the badminton tournament
Woohoo. The day is getting closer. I pray that I will be able to perform at my best and not disappoint my badminton partner and those who will be watching. :)
I enjoy every training session, be it the badminton sessions or the sessions at the gym. I am very much enthralled by the discipline of competitive training.
Yesterday was an hour long gym session with the gym buddy. 20 minutes on the skier, 20 minutes on the bicycle and another 20 minutes strengthening my core muscles. I was very moody and grouchy but of course exercise made it better.
Today was a 6-7p.m. training session with the sparring partner. He really made me run from side to side and front to back. We went for dinner @ Macs and they got me started on the Monopoly sticker game. Apparently, we are able to win fabulous prizes from the Monopoly game. I also scored a free milkshake which I am so going to redeem tomorrow. Strawberry strawberry strawberry.
Then I headed to YCK for a more leisurely training session with a friend. I practised my drop shots with her. She has a phobia for smashes. I thought I better be kind before she stops playing with me.
And now, my hand is weak and I am tired. Yet I must continue preparing for my facilitation for Ezer on Saturday. There were many valuable lessons I gathered from the 2 chapters. I am blessed by what I have learnt so far. More laterz..
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I enjoy every training session, be it the badminton sessions or the sessions at the gym. I am very much enthralled by the discipline of competitive training.
Yesterday was an hour long gym session with the gym buddy. 20 minutes on the skier, 20 minutes on the bicycle and another 20 minutes strengthening my core muscles. I was very moody and grouchy but of course exercise made it better.
Today was a 6-7p.m. training session with the sparring partner. He really made me run from side to side and front to back. We went for dinner @ Macs and they got me started on the Monopoly sticker game. Apparently, we are able to win fabulous prizes from the Monopoly game. I also scored a free milkshake which I am so going to redeem tomorrow. Strawberry strawberry strawberry.
Then I headed to YCK for a more leisurely training session with a friend. I practised my drop shots with her. She has a phobia for smashes. I thought I better be kind before she stops playing with me.
And now, my hand is weak and I am tired. Yet I must continue preparing for my facilitation for Ezer on Saturday. There were many valuable lessons I gathered from the 2 chapters. I am blessed by what I have learnt so far. More laterz..
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Randoms
I was overtaking 2 lorries to enter the slip road to KJE when I realised that I would never want to drive a van. I will prolly spend more money paying off the speeding fines at the end of it all.
My right hand is so sore I can't type properly. I am so glad that tomorrow's conference doesn't require me to exert much energy.
My mum, dad and bro are away. My mum away on holiday with my aunties in HK and MAcau. She will be coming home tomorrow. My dad and my bro in Thailand for a week for my bro's dancing lessons.
I came out to an old old friend(over sms) who's a christian. He said he has no issue with me being gay. I will be sitting with him at the conference tomorrow. :) I am thankful.
I get to wake up at 8a.m. tomorrow morning because the conference starts only at 9a.m.! :D I am happy.
The SH's still at a meeting. :( Poor thing. She's tired. Praying for strength for her and alertness as she drives home later.
I am looking forward to the Ozzie holiday. Counting down!
It's very disheartening and depressing hanging out with people who are critical and unkind with their words. Praying for wisdom to know what is the best thing to do. Praying also I won't be influenced. So I should spend more time with Jesus. Ever loving, ever edifying, ever beautiful.
I am hungry. Very hungry.
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My right hand is so sore I can't type properly. I am so glad that tomorrow's conference doesn't require me to exert much energy.
My mum, dad and bro are away. My mum away on holiday with my aunties in HK and MAcau. She will be coming home tomorrow. My dad and my bro in Thailand for a week for my bro's dancing lessons.
I came out to an old old friend(over sms) who's a christian. He said he has no issue with me being gay. I will be sitting with him at the conference tomorrow. :) I am thankful.
I get to wake up at 8a.m. tomorrow morning because the conference starts only at 9a.m.! :D I am happy.
The SH's still at a meeting. :( Poor thing. She's tired. Praying for strength for her and alertness as she drives home later.
I am looking forward to the Ozzie holiday. Counting down!
It's very disheartening and depressing hanging out with people who are critical and unkind with their words. Praying for wisdom to know what is the best thing to do. Praying also I won't be influenced. So I should spend more time with Jesus. Ever loving, ever edifying, ever beautiful.
I am hungry. Very hungry.
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
Training plan for next week
Monday: Rest
Tuesday: Gym
Wednesday: Badminton with C
Thursday: Badminton with Sayoni Gals
Friday: Gym
Saturday: Rest
Sunday: 3 hours of badminton together with partner.
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Tuesday: Gym
Wednesday: Badminton with C
Thursday: Badminton with Sayoni Gals
Friday: Gym
Saturday: Rest
Sunday: 3 hours of badminton together with partner.
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Countdown: 13 days to the badminton tournament
I made many unforced errors today. I think my partner must be frustrated that I lost a few points. I thought I wasn't able to play much today but it didn't seem that bad. The only thing I couldn't do was the full smash because my arm was injured.
Anyhowz, I do need to train a lot more. My shots need to be more offensive. I need to be more aggressive. ATTACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
Praying that my arm will heal soon. Praying also that He will be in the centre of all this. He's the one who will give me the strength, power and concentration to persevere to the end. Ganbatte!
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Anyhowz, I do need to train a lot more. My shots need to be more offensive. I need to be more aggressive. ATTACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
Praying that my arm will heal soon. Praying also that He will be in the centre of all this. He's the one who will give me the strength, power and concentration to persevere to the end. Ganbatte!
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A minute of silence
to mourn the demise of my really pretty 3 year old Wilson N code badminton racquet which had served me very well.
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wakeboarding was ...
expensive.. and painful.. for me because of an old injury. I injured the flexor carpi ulnaris, one of the wrist flexor muscles of the forearm. My best friend told me it is liken to the Golf Elbow. Got to take it easy for badminton today.
Though it's expensive, I reckon I better do stuff like that now that I am still getting my full pay.
The time out at sea was awesome.
The feel of the wind against the face
The sun occasionally coming out to say hi
The comfortable conversations to the boat
Watching young kids riding the waves on the wakeboard
So proud of the SH for getting up and staying up the wakeboard on her first try
It's all worth the $65, I must say.
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Though it's expensive, I reckon I better do stuff like that now that I am still getting my full pay.
The time out at sea was awesome.
The feel of the wind against the face
The sun occasionally coming out to say hi
The comfortable conversations to the boat
Watching young kids riding the waves on the wakeboard
So proud of the SH for getting up and staying up the wakeboard on her first try
It's all worth the $65, I must say.
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The thing about Sunday
One reason why I love Sunday is that I get to go to church to meet God via corperate worship, via the sermon, via communion and via fellowship. I look forward to seeing the gals at church.
One reason why I do not love Sunday is that I have to prepare to go to work the next day.
BUT
This is the day that the Lord has made, let us be glad and rejoice in it.(Psalms 118:24)
Praying that the joy of the Lord will be my strength.
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One reason why I do not love Sunday is that I have to prepare to go to work the next day.
BUT
This is the day that the Lord has made, let us be glad and rejoice in it.(Psalms 118:24)
Praying that the joy of the Lord will be my strength.
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Another thing I forgot to mention..
This was the conversation that also got my defense mechanism up. It was instinct, truly.
JS (another male colleague sitting opposite me) to MM (my suspected closeted gay colleague): MM, are you going anywhere for the holidays?
MM: No plans yet..
JS: How come? Oh ya, you got to save money?
S thinking in her mind (hmm, for what reason)
MM: No lah. Save money for what?
S: To get married?
JS: *Laughs*
MM: Get married to who? Get married to you ah? (directing the question to me) you is it, you is it? (laughing jokingly in an excited tone)
S: Erh. Gay marriages are not legalised in Singapore. Haha.
Conversation ends.
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JS (another male colleague sitting opposite me) to MM (my suspected closeted gay colleague): MM, are you going anywhere for the holidays?
MM: No plans yet..
JS: How come? Oh ya, you got to save money?
S thinking in her mind (hmm, for what reason)
MM: No lah. Save money for what?
S: To get married?
JS: *Laughs*
MM: Get married to who? Get married to you ah? (directing the question to me) you is it, you is it? (laughing jokingly in an excited tone)
S: Erh. Gay marriages are not legalised in Singapore. Haha.
Conversation ends.
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Friday, November 13, 2009
Before the jog.. about work and colleagues
On Tuesday, my colleague, whom I feel has the inclination to be gay, seemed to hint that we should go on a holiday together. When we talked about travel plans, I told her I was going to Australia and Cambodia with a friend and left it as that.
On Wednesday, we were sitting together during a meeting and she suggested watching a movie. I decided to take the effort to get to know her better as a friend and colleague and agreed to watch it with her. She immediately suggested Monday after work. I was a little reluctant because I knew I wanted to spend the time training, yet I felt bad because as friends, we are supposed to give time to each other. The other reason I said yes to Monday was because the movie she suggested watching was ending its run. However, she seemed too overexcited and friendly and that got me scared, so I decided to ask her if it was okay for A to go with us, afterall the three of us work quite closely together. She said okay (with a smile, over sms). So the three of us have a date for dinner and movie @ Vivocity on Monday. That is another day without training. Bleah.
Maybe she just needs some company. I find it difficult to give a lot of myself to someone whom I cannot be myself with. I don't know if that is too selfish.
I was thinking that I will prolly come out to her over dinner.
A is getting quite comfortable with me. She has been more physically affectionate i.e grabbing my arm/elbow and holding it for the duration of time when we are talking. I do feel a lil uncomfortable yet I think this kinda signifies that she is comfortable with me and that makes me glad. I really think she has some gay genes in her. She enjoys looking at women's bodies and openly comments about what sexy bodies they have. And she just told some of our colleagues today that she would want to go on a spa holiday with me so she can see my body. Argh. I feel embarrassed whenever she says things like that.
Anywayz, I made a few booboos wrt the result slips and caused a colleague to do extra work because of my mistakes :( I feel really bad. I shall get him something to thank him.
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On Wednesday, we were sitting together during a meeting and she suggested watching a movie. I decided to take the effort to get to know her better as a friend and colleague and agreed to watch it with her. She immediately suggested Monday after work. I was a little reluctant because I knew I wanted to spend the time training, yet I felt bad because as friends, we are supposed to give time to each other. The other reason I said yes to Monday was because the movie she suggested watching was ending its run. However, she seemed too overexcited and friendly and that got me scared, so I decided to ask her if it was okay for A to go with us, afterall the three of us work quite closely together. She said okay (with a smile, over sms). So the three of us have a date for dinner and movie @ Vivocity on Monday. That is another day without training. Bleah.
Maybe she just needs some company. I find it difficult to give a lot of myself to someone whom I cannot be myself with. I don't know if that is too selfish.
I was thinking that I will prolly come out to her over dinner.
A is getting quite comfortable with me. She has been more physically affectionate i.e grabbing my arm/elbow and holding it for the duration of time when we are talking. I do feel a lil uncomfortable yet I think this kinda signifies that she is comfortable with me and that makes me glad. I really think she has some gay genes in her. She enjoys looking at women's bodies and openly comments about what sexy bodies they have. And she just told some of our colleagues today that she would want to go on a spa holiday with me so she can see my body. Argh. I feel embarrassed whenever she says things like that.
Anywayz, I made a few booboos wrt the result slips and caused a colleague to do extra work because of my mistakes :( I feel really bad. I shall get him something to thank him.
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14 days to the badminton tournament
and I didn't train today. Not a single bit. I reckon I should take a break before wakeboarding tomorrow afternoon and the 2 hour badminton session on Sunday.
This Sunday's game is courtesy of M. The 2 hours session shouldn't be too tiring since we will all be taking turns to play. My partner will be back in action that day. Time to work on the court chemistry. Yay!
I am very thankful to the different people who has been providing some badminton training for me in one way or another.
Maybe I should just go for a 20 minutes jog now. ;) I am quite becoming the exercise freak.( I didn't go in the end)
Oh. No foot reflexology for me today too. Bleah. Too lazy to travel that far.
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This Sunday's game is courtesy of M. The 2 hours session shouldn't be too tiring since we will all be taking turns to play. My partner will be back in action that day. Time to work on the court chemistry. Yay!
I am very thankful to the different people who has been providing some badminton training for me in one way or another.
Maybe I should just go for a 20 minutes jog now. ;) I am quite becoming the exercise freak.( I didn't go in the end)
Oh. No foot reflexology for me today too. Bleah. Too lazy to travel that far.
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15 days to badminton tournament
And so I had 2 badminton sessions today and I am itching for foot reflexology. Tomorrow!
I am beginning to move my feet a little more during both games so those were 2 rather exhausting sessions for me. I am lying on my bed now because my back is a little sore :)
There was some time in between the badminton slots and a dear friend had asked me out for dinner last week. Her maid cooked for us. Delicious food. She's a straight friend who knows about my sexual orientation so the sharing was very honest. I like!
I am truly sleepy now. Night night.
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I am beginning to move my feet a little more during both games so those were 2 rather exhausting sessions for me. I am lying on my bed now because my back is a little sore :)
There was some time in between the badminton slots and a dear friend had asked me out for dinner last week. Her maid cooked for us. Delicious food. She's a straight friend who knows about my sexual orientation so the sharing was very honest. I like!
I am truly sleepy now. Night night.
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
Pettitoes?
I was driving through Balestier Road on my way back from badminton when I saw the signboard of this place. It is called Pigs Claypot Pettitoes. I spent about a minute wondering what Pettitoes are. I remember pigs dancing on their hind legs in cartoons and remembered their cute pink hooves. Perhaps Pettitoes means petticoats on toes? heh.
I asked my best friend reliable as she is. And this is what I found out:
pet⋅ti⋅toes /ˈpÉ›tiËŒtoÊŠz/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [pet-ee-tohz] Show IPA
–plural noun 1. the feet of a pig, esp. used as food.
2. the human toes or feet, esp. those of a child.
The wonders of Google, my best friend.
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I asked my best friend reliable as she is. And this is what I found out:
pet⋅ti⋅toes /ˈpÉ›tiËŒtoÊŠz/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [pet-ee-tohz] Show IPA
–plural noun 1. the feet of a pig, esp. used as food.
2. the human toes or feet, esp. those of a child.
The wonders of Google, my best friend.
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I think it's a crappy excuse to give..
the excuse I have heard recently for someone to initiate a break up is that she thinks homosexuality is wrong in the eyes of God and the proper way is to get married and have kids.
Don't be mistaken, I am not saying that I have issues with people who thinks that way. I just have issues with someone who uses that excuse to break up with their partner when the real reason is because they don't want to be with their partners anymore/they want to be with someone else.
Sigh.
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Don't be mistaken, I am not saying that I have issues with people who thinks that way. I just have issues with someone who uses that excuse to break up with their partner when the real reason is because they don't want to be with their partners anymore/they want to be with someone else.
Sigh.
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Countdown: 17 days to badminton tournament
Today's workout was a short one (20 minutes skier, 20 minutes bike, 15 minutes of strengthening the core) because I had a dinner appointment with the SH. The gym buddy joined too, for a yummy meal of fish head curry @ Karu's. Both of them thought other places serve better fish head curry. I wasn't too fussy and was in fact rather pleased with the food.
A strong core will allow the body to keep optimal body alignment to efficiently transfer force from the lower to the upper body and back again so I can keep my balance while returning those high and deep shots. Having a strong core will also put me in a better position to do a smash.
Tomorrow is a busy day. *takes a deep breath* I better rest early tonight. Durian last night, fish head curry tonight. Heaty heaty. Night night.
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A strong core will allow the body to keep optimal body alignment to efficiently transfer force from the lower to the upper body and back again so I can keep my balance while returning those high and deep shots. Having a strong core will also put me in a better position to do a smash.
Tomorrow is a busy day. *takes a deep breath* I better rest early tonight. Durian last night, fish head curry tonight. Heaty heaty. Night night.
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Posting @ Work
One of those rare times. There is no drive to do any constructive work now.
okay. back to work. I feel guilty blogging @ work.
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okay. back to work. I feel guilty blogging @ work.
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Countdown: 18 days to badminton Tournament
There was supposed to be tennis last night but it rained when we reached. Bleah. Was deciding between gym and foot reflexology. I took the easier way out and went for foot reflexology at Hougang Mall nearby( which is freaking far from my place..) Kohong is a good foot reflexology centre. None of the foot reflexologists has failed so far.
I am so tired. It was a good workout just now. I was working on my long range shots and a little on my smashes. Just a 45 minutes session and it was tiring enough.
I was hearing out a friend of her relationship woes, and it struck me that certain information about your romantic relationship is better off not shared. Sharing what one is displeased with with a partner opens up the door for a third party to come in. Much as it is tempting to release our frustrations, one way to guard our romantic relationships would be to resolve problems within the relationship, with lots of prayer for wisdom, grace, guidance and love.
I just received the timetable for ETC. Seems like it's half a day on Wed and a full day on Friday. Quite doable if the management is willing to let me work a 4 day week and skip staff contact time.
That's all for now. Gonna shower, read the bible for a bit before heading for CG.
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I am so tired. It was a good workout just now. I was working on my long range shots and a little on my smashes. Just a 45 minutes session and it was tiring enough.
I was hearing out a friend of her relationship woes, and it struck me that certain information about your romantic relationship is better off not shared. Sharing what one is displeased with with a partner opens up the door for a third party to come in. Much as it is tempting to release our frustrations, one way to guard our romantic relationships would be to resolve problems within the relationship, with lots of prayer for wisdom, grace, guidance and love.
I just received the timetable for ETC. Seems like it's half a day on Wed and a full day on Friday. Quite doable if the management is willing to let me work a 4 day week and skip staff contact time.
That's all for now. Gonna shower, read the bible for a bit before heading for CG.
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Sunday, November 8, 2009
I learnt something from today's badminton session
and that is to watch the hand motion of the opponent who is returning the shuttlecock. Usually, I will react only when the shuttlecock is in motion. By observing the hand motion of the opponent, I have 1-2 more seconds more reaction time to help me be in a better position to return the shuttlecock.
Of course, I have to be fitter. If not, I will have enough mental capacity only to react to the shots, not predict the shots.
SPE is a nice place to be to play badminton. Because there is Mr Prata just opposite and I had a milo dinosaur and half a chicken murtabak with the semi-indian.
The SH's exact words on sms: You are putting all the calories back!!!:)
I am fasting from chocolate for a week. Thanks to K for accompanying me!
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Of course, I have to be fitter. If not, I will have enough mental capacity only to react to the shots, not predict the shots.
SPE is a nice place to be to play badminton. Because there is Mr Prata just opposite and I had a milo dinosaur and half a chicken murtabak with the semi-indian.
The SH's exact words on sms: You are putting all the calories back!!!:)
I am fasting from chocolate for a week. Thanks to K for accompanying me!
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I am playing badminton afterall..
Well, there was a free game going on at Hougang Sports Hall at 5p.m. today but because we didn't rsvp, all the spaces were taken up. R and J were so keen on playing that they were willing to travel the distance. So since they are in the East (NE) and me in the West (Somewhat NW), I looked for courts at SPE Bt Timah and they have a court at 6p.m. So we are all going to get a workout from badminton afterall. Yipee!
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Sunday.
I just came home from an ETC briefing @ Covenant. I am seriously exploring doing a few courses next year particularly in the Biblical Track. They are going to send us the course details soon. But must pay, and not really cheap. A few hundred dollars for the year. God will make a way, thank you Lord!
Today's take home message from the sermon really hit home. I think it's an essential message of today: Do not give God the leftovers; leftover time, leftover monies, leftover effort, leftover everything. When we say we put God first, our action must equate to our talk. And the order of priority; God, Family, Close friends, Work. ( That is from an Australian's point of view :P) I feel that as long as we put God first, everything else will fall in place. He will lead where we will follow.
Lord, I really want to put you first in every aspect of my life; in my work, in my relationship with the SH, in my service to your people, in my training for the badminton tournament, even in the love for your people.. Help me (in the most gentle way possible) learn what it really means to put you first in everything that I do. Saturate me with your presence. Amen.
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Today's take home message from the sermon really hit home. I think it's an essential message of today: Do not give God the leftovers; leftover time, leftover monies, leftover effort, leftover everything. When we say we put God first, our action must equate to our talk. And the order of priority; God, Family, Close friends, Work. ( That is from an Australian's point of view :P) I feel that as long as we put God first, everything else will fall in place. He will lead where we will follow.
Lord, I really want to put you first in every aspect of my life; in my work, in my relationship with the SH, in my service to your people, in my training for the badminton tournament, even in the love for your people.. Help me (in the most gentle way possible) learn what it really means to put you first in everything that I do. Saturate me with your presence. Amen.
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Training on Saturday and more..
What a blessing to be able to sleep in on Saturday!
I woke at 11a.m. and went for a badminton training session at the SSC with 2 others. It must either be the afternoon heat or the intensive training session that I was dripping with sweat. Really dripping! The training session primarily worked on my game stamina and my smashes. Boy! That was tiring.
Then I headed for another session with a few others I do not know very well. They played 21 point games. I played 2 games with them at Toa Payoh East CC before I had to leave to meet the SH to get 2 gifts plus bread for a dinner party. Toa Payoh East CC didn't have shower facilities so I had to drive down to Toa Payoh Stadium to shower and dress " casual elegent" as required by the hostess for the farewell dinner for a dear friend.
Met up with the SH to get expensive french and italian loaves as requested by the hostess (I learnt from Sun Moulin @ Isetan then that Ciabatta is actually an italian bread!)
So anyway, dinner was fun and cosy. The interaction was interesting and informational in the very comfortable apartment. I would love to have an apartment like that someday. :)
Laterz..
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I woke at 11a.m. and went for a badminton training session at the SSC with 2 others. It must either be the afternoon heat or the intensive training session that I was dripping with sweat. Really dripping! The training session primarily worked on my game stamina and my smashes. Boy! That was tiring.
Then I headed for another session with a few others I do not know very well. They played 21 point games. I played 2 games with them at Toa Payoh East CC before I had to leave to meet the SH to get 2 gifts plus bread for a dinner party. Toa Payoh East CC didn't have shower facilities so I had to drive down to Toa Payoh Stadium to shower and dress " casual elegent" as required by the hostess for the farewell dinner for a dear friend.
Met up with the SH to get expensive french and italian loaves as requested by the hostess (I learnt from Sun Moulin @ Isetan then that Ciabatta is actually an italian bread!)
So anyway, dinner was fun and cosy. The interaction was interesting and informational in the very comfortable apartment. I would love to have an apartment like that someday. :)
Laterz..
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Friday, November 6, 2009
Updates on Training
I was supposed to have an afternoon badminton training session yesterday but the sparring partner was unwell. At night, badminton was at CSC club @ Tessensohn. It was freaking far but someone new (J) to the Sayoni Badminton Club initiated booking the courts so I shouldn't complain.
I was a little dazed while playing (prolly cuz of the travelling distance) and didn't play very well. The other reason why I didn't play as well was because of my knee. It felt like something had shifted in the knee region so it felt uncomfortable bending my knee (imagine me moving like a crab on a court, that was how it felt like) But any bit of exercise helps, especially in the reduction of weight. Besides, I love eating (almond roca chocolate - 40% trans fat - so going to die early)! I am such a serial monogamist with chocolates! The flavour of the season is definitely the Almond Roca.
On a side note, I must mention that I have not lost weight for my partner before! hehe.. they might have hinted very subtly but I guess it wasn't a pressing issue because a reduction in the fat content would prolly mean a reduction of fat somewhere else. Cuddly is one of the reasons why they love/loved me. hehe..
Anywayz, as I had mentioned before, the reason why I want to lose weight is so I can move faster on court. Besides, the unproportionate body (heavy top, small bottom) doesn't help my knee condition. Which sets me thinking: Weight training actually causes my body to be heavier because of the increase in muscle mass. So my focus for this season would be to continue my cardiovascular activity (the jogging, skiing and cycling), strength the muscles around my knees to support the knees, and lighten up on weights done on the upper body so the legs carry less weight.
My usual gym routine would be to do 20 minutes on the skier, 20 minutes on the bicycle and 20 minutes on weights (which I just did an hour ago). Maybe I could just have an hour of cardio whenever I hit the gym. Sweet!
And the shoes. I initially thought the Nike court shoes will be better than the Nike cross trainer but I feel bouncier and lighter on the Nike Cross Trainer so I will prolly use that from now on. It's easier on my knees too.
That's all the training update for today.
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I was a little dazed while playing (prolly cuz of the travelling distance) and didn't play very well. The other reason why I didn't play as well was because of my knee. It felt like something had shifted in the knee region so it felt uncomfortable bending my knee (imagine me moving like a crab on a court, that was how it felt like) But any bit of exercise helps, especially in the reduction of weight. Besides, I love eating (almond roca chocolate - 40% trans fat - so going to die early)! I am such a serial monogamist with chocolates! The flavour of the season is definitely the Almond Roca.
On a side note, I must mention that I have not lost weight for my partner before! hehe.. they might have hinted very subtly but I guess it wasn't a pressing issue because a reduction in the fat content would prolly mean a reduction of fat somewhere else. Cuddly is one of the reasons why they love/loved me. hehe..
Anywayz, as I had mentioned before, the reason why I want to lose weight is so I can move faster on court. Besides, the unproportionate body (heavy top, small bottom) doesn't help my knee condition. Which sets me thinking: Weight training actually causes my body to be heavier because of the increase in muscle mass. So my focus for this season would be to continue my cardiovascular activity (the jogging, skiing and cycling), strength the muscles around my knees to support the knees, and lighten up on weights done on the upper body so the legs carry less weight.
My usual gym routine would be to do 20 minutes on the skier, 20 minutes on the bicycle and 20 minutes on weights (which I just did an hour ago). Maybe I could just have an hour of cardio whenever I hit the gym. Sweet!
And the shoes. I initially thought the Nike court shoes will be better than the Nike cross trainer but I feel bouncier and lighter on the Nike Cross Trainer so I will prolly use that from now on. It's easier on my knees too.
That's all the training update for today.
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Thursday, November 5, 2009
Haha.. I am tickled!
I asked my best friend what a continental breakfast consist. This was what I got.
Q: What does "Continental Breakfast" mean?
A: It means you're hungry by 10:30.
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Q: What does "Continental Breakfast" mean?
A: It means you're hungry by 10:30.
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Verse of the day
'Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,' says the LORD, who has compassion on you.
Isaiah 54:10
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Isaiah 54:10
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Don't leave the Word behind
I have been a lil lazy in reading the bible, just settling for the Encouragement for the Day which comes in through the email. Then I realised that I have been doing many things out of convenience; praying merely when there's a need, when someone comes to mind, whenever someone asks for prayers and worshipping to music only while driving or when the music is on.
While checking the email for the encouragement for the day, I heard this "Don't settle for others' daily devotions, read the bible. Don't leave the bible behind." And I reckon the discipline of praying and setting aside time to worship at the Lord's feet must stay.
Yes Sir!
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While checking the email for the encouragement for the day, I heard this "Don't settle for others' daily devotions, read the bible. Don't leave the bible behind." And I reckon the discipline of praying and setting aside time to worship at the Lord's feet must stay.
Yes Sir!
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The Secret Blog
I keep a blog to record the days we meet and what we do. I was just updating the entries when I realised that we are beginning to meet more often. When we meet so often and I still want to see more of her, does that mean that it is almost time to move in together?
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Singapore Idol
The judges on Singapore Idol ain't too kind. They were very obviously trying to get the 16 year old Duane out by influencing the audience's opinion of him. Calling him big baby in a mocking tone! I was shocked, honestly. But he really ought to lose a bit of weight and do something to his teeth to look more like an idol. I really enjoyed his singing though. He sounds better than he looks, that's all I will say.
Exams are over, I can start generating some discussion on the Singapore Idol as writing exercises for the kids. That should be fun for them.
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Exams are over, I can start generating some discussion on the Singapore Idol as writing exercises for the kids. That should be fun for them.
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today's training
And so I didn't go to the gym. By the time I finished at work, it was already 3ish and I had an appointment at 5. I headed to the tracks and started jogging. I was rather determined to finish 6 rounds but the drizzle came (thankfully) and I didn't feel much of a loser finishing after the 5th. Did some sprints and sidesteps in all directions to facilitate moving on court. That took all of 30 minutes. Quick workout.
I am looking forward to 2 hours of badminton tomorrow!
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I am looking forward to 2 hours of badminton tomorrow!
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Exercise Schedule
Wednesday - 20 minutes jog, 20 minutes bike, 20 minutes skier, 20 minutes weights
Thursday - 2 hours badminton
Friday - 20 minutes jog, 20 minutes bike, 20 minutes skier, 20 minutes weights
Saturday - 2 hours badminton
Sunday - 2 hours badminton
So exciting!
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Thursday - 2 hours badminton
Friday - 20 minutes jog, 20 minutes bike, 20 minutes skier, 20 minutes weights
Saturday - 2 hours badminton
Sunday - 2 hours badminton
So exciting!
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Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Yay!
I am shadowing ZH at the end of January! Time to pick up the guitar and start getting serious about brushing up my skills! :)
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Guys
SH and I were having brekkie at the tentage area after service. My ex-bf saw us and waved hi. I waved back. He was using his mobile.
A few days later on msn.
D: Hey shen, did you get my sms ?
S: No.. did you send to the other phone? I cancelled the Singtel line a few weeks ago. What's up?
D. OIC, no, i was going to ask you if you wanted to go to bukit tinggi with Steve and I. You can ask another gf along (he has seen me with the SH a few times).
S: oh.. thanks for asking but no thanks. I am preparing for a badminton tournament at the end of Nov.
D: Oh, Steve and I will throw shuttlecocks at you to practise. Go lah.
S: It's okay, enjoy yourself. Thanks for inviting.
I might just come out to him the next time we have a heart to heart chat.. and the guy who proposed to me thrice, he asked me out on a date again just a few hours ago. I am also planning to come out to him but I think he might not be able to understand. He also has seen me a few times with the SH.
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A few days later on msn.
D: Hey shen, did you get my sms ?
S: No.. did you send to the other phone? I cancelled the Singtel line a few weeks ago. What's up?
D. OIC, no, i was going to ask you if you wanted to go to bukit tinggi with Steve and I. You can ask another gf along (he has seen me with the SH a few times).
S: oh.. thanks for asking but no thanks. I am preparing for a badminton tournament at the end of Nov.
D: Oh, Steve and I will throw shuttlecocks at you to practise. Go lah.
S: It's okay, enjoy yourself. Thanks for inviting.
I might just come out to him the next time we have a heart to heart chat.. and the guy who proposed to me thrice, he asked me out on a date again just a few hours ago. I am also planning to come out to him but I think he might not be able to understand. He also has seen me a few times with the SH.
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Moving forward :)
One new face
Few familiar faces
Renewed strength
Defined purpose
God works in amazing ways
hearts touched during worship
hearts touched during message
hearts touched during prayer
the things of God
worth more than silver or gold
Thanks be to Him
All glory to Him
and to Him alone.
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Few familiar faces
Renewed strength
Defined purpose
God works in amazing ways
hearts touched during worship
hearts touched during message
hearts touched during prayer
the things of God
worth more than silver or gold
Thanks be to Him
All glory to Him
and to Him alone.
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Counting down
Another 23 days to a real break. I can't wait!! I wanna read the OT through from cover to cover this hols!
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You
Who can compare to You
You who hold my world in your hand
You who empower me to rise above my circumstance
You who will never fail me
You who will never put me in circumstances beyond what I can bear
I may run away from it all
But it is you gracious and merciful Father
Who draws me back into your loving arms once again.
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You who hold my world in your hand
You who empower me to rise above my circumstance
You who will never fail me
You who will never put me in circumstances beyond what I can bear
I may run away from it all
But it is you gracious and merciful Father
Who draws me back into your loving arms once again.
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Be still
Our Lord, our God, the Holy one of Israel.
When the oceans rise and thunder roars
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
Still - Hillsongs
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When the oceans rise and thunder roars
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
Still - Hillsongs
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Question:
When will we get a generation who will rise up above their circumstances to make a difference for God?
Answer: When we start praying.
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Answer: When we start praying.
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A Reminder:
" Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life, so that in the day of Christ, I may be proud that I did not run in vain or labor in vain. "
Phil 2: 14-16.
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Phil 2: 14-16.
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Coming out
I am gathering courage to come out to my DG gals. I forgot to mention that I came out to my DGL last Friday. She's really kind and nice about it. I know why I look up to her so much. She asked me to pray for her too because she is at crossroads now in regards to her place in ministry and which course of study to take. I pray that her new ministry would be LGBT related. Maybe she can come and lead PLUSH. I have gained plentiful from her. Just a random thought and am going to make it a prayer.
I reckon DG is a good place to start coming out to because of the time spent with them weekly for the past few years. But my pastor's wife did tell me not to share my views on reconciling my sexuality and faith with anyone so they won't be stumbled. This calls for more prayer for wisdom and discernment.
How do we create authentic relationships with others when we can't be real with them; when they do not know the people special in our lives and how and where we spend time in ministry?
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I reckon DG is a good place to start coming out to because of the time spent with them weekly for the past few years. But my pastor's wife did tell me not to share my views on reconciling my sexuality and faith with anyone so they won't be stumbled. This calls for more prayer for wisdom and discernment.
How do we create authentic relationships with others when we can't be real with them; when they do not know the people special in our lives and how and where we spend time in ministry?
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Monday, November 2, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Goodbye Weekend!
Shen loves prata and she loves the prata @ the Indian Muslim shop outside the SH's place. So after the documentary, I was supposed to meet the SH @ a birthday celebration but they decided to end the celebration early. We decided to have prata outside her place instead and since half of the entourage lives around that area, we headed there together and ate $31 worth of food and drinks, all 8 of us!
SH and I walked around the neighbourhood after dinner/supper. Such a bummer to live so far away from each other.
I am craving chocolate now. I shall go have 1 almond roca (niceeeeee) @ midnight.. :)
Miracle today: ( I was praying the whole 25 minutes) : Distance from CCK to Great World City- Very far. Time taken to reach, park, take the lift up and collect movie tickets - 25 minutes.
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SH and I walked around the neighbourhood after dinner/supper. Such a bummer to live so far away from each other.
I am craving chocolate now. I shall go have 1 almond roca (niceeeeee) @ midnight.. :)
Miracle today: ( I was praying the whole 25 minutes) : Distance from CCK to Great World City- Very far. Time taken to reach, park, take the lift up and collect movie tickets - 25 minutes.
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A post before I whizz out in and out of the bathroom and out of the house!
Just heard a wonderful and encouraging sermon online. 45 minutes. Real Christianity is accepting. God is not anti-anyone. He is for us. My heart is warmed.
http://www.baysidechurch.com.au/content/view/164/30/
Just had another training session courtesy of J and Y. THey are the power smashers. I realised all the power smashers used to play for school. It was good for G and I to take their shots. I would like to work on my high and long drives at the baseline while in motion. I have no problems hitting when I am in position. It's when I am in motion that my shots are weak. I think that needs working on.
It's a crazy weekend of too many things to do. In the midst of all the busyness, I am thankful for a great time of sharing of fellowship with gals from Sayoni @ dinner, followed by a impromptu surprise birthday celebration for S with some other gals from FCC, thankful for the PLUSHIES for their contribution in making stewardship so easy and smooth to lead, thankful even for the chance to continue fellowshipping with the gals later for the documentary and some post dinner thingy with some others.
I shall shower now before I am too late! :)
Thank you Jesus for loving me! :)
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http://www.baysidechurch.com.au/content/view/164/30/
Just had another training session courtesy of J and Y. THey are the power smashers. I realised all the power smashers used to play for school. It was good for G and I to take their shots. I would like to work on my high and long drives at the baseline while in motion. I have no problems hitting when I am in position. It's when I am in motion that my shots are weak. I think that needs working on.
It's a crazy weekend of too many things to do. In the midst of all the busyness, I am thankful for a great time of sharing of fellowship with gals from Sayoni @ dinner, followed by a impromptu surprise birthday celebration for S with some other gals from FCC, thankful for the PLUSHIES for their contribution in making stewardship so easy and smooth to lead, thankful even for the chance to continue fellowshipping with the gals later for the documentary and some post dinner thingy with some others.
I shall shower now before I am too late! :)
Thank you Jesus for loving me! :)
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