From my heart to the heavens, Jesus be the centre. It's all about you. Yes it's all about you.
It was a blessed time of gathering to worship and meditate on the word of God brought to us, a congregation of 250 LGBTQI. There was the presence of God and the anointing of the Holy Spirit. I am honoured and blessed to be able to make it for such a conference like such.
There were three main messages that God spoke to me through the entire conference, which I will elaborate more in the next few posts. In between, God showed me something about a ministry for a fellow sister in christ. I am not sure if I could call that a vision because I don't know what a vision looks like. It is surreal because that simple act of ministry makes so much sense yet it was only during the conference I received it when we had that conversation about ministry about a year ago. I love watching God work. That is the strongest testimony for me to show me His living presence. He's alive!
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Saturday, June 30, 2012
WHat a glorious day
and a great weekend. Firstly, I get to wake at 930a.m. Secondly, I get to catch up on all my markings. Thirdly, I get to go to Pink Dot for the first time in my life. Fourthly, I get to eat kickass MSW durians tomorrow. Fifthly, I get to help out for AV Audio tomorrow. Lastly, it's a holiday on Monday!!!! Long weekend!
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Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
one of the few relaxing days of the holidays
I had a very relaxing two days last week when a dearie planned a staycation for me. It was refreshing and I had time to catch up on sunning, reading the bible and just catching up on rest and sleep.
Today's another relaxing day. I woke at my leisure, had brekkie with my mum before sending her to the hospital while I picked up my laptop adaptor, did a full classic pedicure and work on my assignment, my itunes, caught up on facebook before heading to the hospital later in the afternoon. Hoping to have some time to read the papers from cover to cover and also the bible.
Errands remaining to run include: paying my credit card bill, sending two letters out to giro my car loan and internet bills and bringing the fcuk watch to repair before the warranty ends. I so appreciate days like that...
I love Jesus and I love reading the bible. :)
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Today's another relaxing day. I woke at my leisure, had brekkie with my mum before sending her to the hospital while I picked up my laptop adaptor, did a full classic pedicure and work on my assignment, my itunes, caught up on facebook before heading to the hospital later in the afternoon. Hoping to have some time to read the papers from cover to cover and also the bible.
Errands remaining to run include: paying my credit card bill, sending two letters out to giro my car loan and internet bills and bringing the fcuk watch to repair before the warranty ends. I so appreciate days like that...
I love Jesus and I love reading the bible. :)
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as expected
Many people came up to me and asked about my dad. A few asked about me and my mum.
I am thankful that people are concerned. Really thankful..
But maybe it will be better to type out an updated report and make some copies the next time because I realised that my "report" gets shorter over time. TOo tired of explaining the same things over and over again.
Also, I think it's God's prompting to me to get someone to speak with my mum. A few people have been asking about my mum and I did feel a nagging feeling in my heart this evening regarding this matter. She seems okay for now, but we will never know. I asked my friend's CGL's wife to arrange a meeting with my mum. Afterall, my parents will attend that CG when my dad is able to do that.
That aside, I am thankful for the gals I have in LUSH especially. They remind each other to pray for my dad every morning.. and even offered to play mahjong with him. So cute. Blessings in my life. I continue to give thanks.
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I am thankful that people are concerned. Really thankful..
But maybe it will be better to type out an updated report and make some copies the next time because I realised that my "report" gets shorter over time. TOo tired of explaining the same things over and over again.
Also, I think it's God's prompting to me to get someone to speak with my mum. A few people have been asking about my mum and I did feel a nagging feeling in my heart this evening regarding this matter. She seems okay for now, but we will never know. I asked my friend's CGL's wife to arrange a meeting with my mum. Afterall, my parents will attend that CG when my dad is able to do that.
That aside, I am thankful for the gals I have in LUSH especially. They remind each other to pray for my dad every morning.. and even offered to play mahjong with him. So cute. Blessings in my life. I continue to give thanks.
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DONE DEAL
Yay! Told W that I want to learn sound from him. And he said okay! Will be fun. It's something that I have always wanted to learn and perhaps to serve in that ministry but other more "necessary" things take precedence.
I am thankful we got a new bassist. I have "stood in" for about a year plus and concluded that I really cannot make it. I think God knows that too, that's why he sent a bassist and a double bassist.
I am a bit sad about not attending Amplify. I have not attended an FCC church camp before. Grrr. Next year, perhaps.
Speaking of which, I got to reschedule my tigerairways flight to somewhere else by this Friday. Ciaoz for now.
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I am thankful we got a new bassist. I have "stood in" for about a year plus and concluded that I really cannot make it. I think God knows that too, that's why he sent a bassist and a double bassist.
I am a bit sad about not attending Amplify. I have not attended an FCC church camp before. Grrr. Next year, perhaps.
Speaking of which, I got to reschedule my tigerairways flight to somewhere else by this Friday. Ciaoz for now.
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Sunday, June 17, 2012
Place of worship?
I am still considering if I should worship at FCC tomorrow morning. I am craving more and more of just God's presence in the place of worship, wherever it is.
I had dinner with a dear friend and had a good catch up. At the end of the session, it made me think: There may be a small proportion of people who go to church for other purposes other than worshipping God. But there are also many people who go to church to seek God, to feel that connection with the Lord, to just be still and worship. It doesn't make it easy because there will always be distractors.. people, interaction, excitement to see mates we have not seen for the past week, exciting news to share, etc. There are also negative distractors, like gossip, complaints and a general feel of insecurity and the feeling of being unsafe in the church environment.
Does that mean that we ought to escape from all these so we can worship God? I think the answer is yes and no. Yes because our primary purpose of churching is to worship God in one voice and one spirit with like-minded souls. Yes because getting into the routine of going to church and being distracted makes it an unhealthy norm in the long run.
No, because this is part of church community, this is part of growing up as a believer. We never can say we are growing if we fail to live with our fellow brothers and sisters in christ. It is through all the distractors, both negative and positive, that we will ideally come into a equilibirum to strike that balance between being able to worship God and worshipping with fellow believers. It's easier to run away, I admit, having done that once or twice, but I think facing challenges is the only way to bring true growth.
A person living in solitude can never be credible when they say they experience peace. True achievement of peace comes only if you can find peace in the midst of turmoils and tribulations.
So guess I am going to FCC tomorrow. Moreover, I got to return an ipod watch to a very kind friend who lent it to me. Such a pretty watch. Blessings galore. I am thankful to God for bringing awesome people into my life.
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I had dinner with a dear friend and had a good catch up. At the end of the session, it made me think: There may be a small proportion of people who go to church for other purposes other than worshipping God. But there are also many people who go to church to seek God, to feel that connection with the Lord, to just be still and worship. It doesn't make it easy because there will always be distractors.. people, interaction, excitement to see mates we have not seen for the past week, exciting news to share, etc. There are also negative distractors, like gossip, complaints and a general feel of insecurity and the feeling of being unsafe in the church environment.
Does that mean that we ought to escape from all these so we can worship God? I think the answer is yes and no. Yes because our primary purpose of churching is to worship God in one voice and one spirit with like-minded souls. Yes because getting into the routine of going to church and being distracted makes it an unhealthy norm in the long run.
No, because this is part of church community, this is part of growing up as a believer. We never can say we are growing if we fail to live with our fellow brothers and sisters in christ. It is through all the distractors, both negative and positive, that we will ideally come into a equilibirum to strike that balance between being able to worship God and worshipping with fellow believers. It's easier to run away, I admit, having done that once or twice, but I think facing challenges is the only way to bring true growth.
A person living in solitude can never be credible when they say they experience peace. True achievement of peace comes only if you can find peace in the midst of turmoils and tribulations.
So guess I am going to FCC tomorrow. Moreover, I got to return an ipod watch to a very kind friend who lent it to me. Such a pretty watch. Blessings galore. I am thankful to God for bringing awesome people into my life.
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Note to self: Make it a daily habit to blog
I enjoy reading my past entries.
It brings back good memories, reminds me of lessons learnt, testifies of God's goodness and makes me feel good that I am using time to the fullest.
In the past 2 weeks, I had things I wanted to blog about but often forget what I want to write once I am past that moment. It's really sad because I felt very intelligent thinking those thoughts, and it hurts that I can't share my intelligence with my readers. LOL. Enough of CRAP talk.
Okay. A proper entry next.
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It brings back good memories, reminds me of lessons learnt, testifies of God's goodness and makes me feel good that I am using time to the fullest.
In the past 2 weeks, I had things I wanted to blog about but often forget what I want to write once I am past that moment. It's really sad because I felt very intelligent thinking those thoughts, and it hurts that I can't share my intelligence with my readers. LOL. Enough of CRAP talk.
Okay. A proper entry next.
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Monday, June 4, 2012
Sunday
I didn’t feel like going to FCC this weekend because I just wanted to worship God and not have people ask me how my dad is, how I am, how I am coping. I was in that kind of “Take me to the place Lord, where there’s nothing else but me and you” mood. So I decided to visit Cornerstone instead. Worship was good but so long that I was having a backache at the end of worship. The message was about returning to our first love.. How to return to our first love?
What the Senior Pastor suggested:
1)First thing is to remember where we had been before when we experienced our first love. Remembering what we used to do when we were at that “high”.
2)Repent: change of mind, change of direction
3)Do the first works. And what is first works? Prayer, Biblical meditation and worship. Keeping our devotional time with God.
In reflection, there are two trains of thoughts. One, it’s true that a relationship with God is possibly the most important thing we can have as believers. And I also agree that it’s through prayer, biblical meditation and worship that we facilitate that relationship with God. And this is also a good reminder for me because it is so tempting to just do and do and do and move with the flow and not set aside sufficient time to pray and meditate. However, I also think there should be outflow of this relationship with God, which is seen in our “fruit”, our effectiveness, our reaching out to people. If every believer works towards this mandate, the world will be a more pleasant place to live in.
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What the Senior Pastor suggested:
1)First thing is to remember where we had been before when we experienced our first love. Remembering what we used to do when we were at that “high”.
2)Repent: change of mind, change of direction
3)Do the first works. And what is first works? Prayer, Biblical meditation and worship. Keeping our devotional time with God.
In reflection, there are two trains of thoughts. One, it’s true that a relationship with God is possibly the most important thing we can have as believers. And I also agree that it’s through prayer, biblical meditation and worship that we facilitate that relationship with God. And this is also a good reminder for me because it is so tempting to just do and do and do and move with the flow and not set aside sufficient time to pray and meditate. However, I also think there should be outflow of this relationship with God, which is seen in our “fruit”, our effectiveness, our reaching out to people. If every believer works towards this mandate, the world will be a more pleasant place to live in.
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Lecture 1 reflection
The lecturer was sharing about how her husband suffered a brain tumour and how the operation was unsuccessful which resulted in the husband being a “vegetable”. She was in and out of hospital day and night for an entire month during that time. After two years, he finally passed away. She mentioned that If a counsellor doesn’t go through stress and loss, they won’t know how their patients feel. It made me think about how I often think that it’s difficult for me to comfort friends whose parents are unwell and how I often have difficult praying for healing for people too…
I guess God has a funny sense of humour, maybe I am put through this situation now so I will be more complete in my ministry for God.. Maybe at the end of all these, I will know better what to say and do for people who have loved ones who are unwell, or who are unwell themselves.. We never know, can we? I am just trusting that God knows what is going to happen at the end of it all and work all things for his higher purpose.
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I guess God has a funny sense of humour, maybe I am put through this situation now so I will be more complete in my ministry for God.. Maybe at the end of all these, I will know better what to say and do for people who have loved ones who are unwell, or who are unwell themselves.. We never know, can we? I am just trusting that God knows what is going to happen at the end of it all and work all things for his higher purpose.
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