music and more

la la la la. I had wanted to say something. But it slipped my mind after having a bit of a musical moment just now.

I was thinking how amazing God has been. He opened my eyes to learn how to play songs on the piano just knowing the chords. Left hand chords, right hand melody. That is how much I can manage for now. But I am mighty pleased, because despite of the fact that I had learnt a few years of piano many moons ago, more of coercing from my parents than interest of my own, but since discovering how simple it is to play songs, I have spent some hours on the keyboard. When I had to force myself to sit in front of the piano for 10 minutes 10 years or more ago ( I stopped my piano lessons at 16), I could now play effortlessly for an hour or 2. Woohoo. Ain't God great? I am not very sure if that means God has blessed me with the gift of serving in the worship ministry though. Because I can play only at a basic level for guitar, drums and keyboard. Seems to me something like jack of some master of none.

God has been speaking to me on quite a few occasions about service in ministry but I sense there is more to come. However, I feel that I got to mend the old before i can move on to a new, where i will be empowered by the spirit of God. Right now, I see PLUSH as one of my area of ministry. But in Covenant, my ministry seems like it's not moving. I stopped following up people already. And I try not to be around for altar call because I want to get to FCC on time. i feel a bit sad, and I feel this is not the right thing to do, to run away like that. i think i got to tell the ministry head that I am serving in another church or take a break of something.

I think I need to spend more quality time with God. I have been feeling a bit far from Him..
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