a few days ago, I wrote about this passage, and how God had spoken. He reminded me something about this passage and its commentary again. So I shall share again.

From Joshua 23:14-16

"Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the Lord your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed. But just as every good promise of the Lord your God has come true, so the Lord will bring on you all the evil he has threatened, until he has destroyed you from this good land he has give you. If you violate the covenant of the Lord your God, which he commanded you, and go and serve other gods and bow down to them, the Lord's anger will burn against you, and you will quickly perish from the good land he has given."

Commentary
Numerous stories in the book of Judges show what Israel had to suffer because of failure to follow God wholeheartedly. God was supremely loving and patient with Israel, just as he is today. But we must not confuse his patience with us as approval of indifference to our sin. Beware of demanding your own way because eventually you may get it - along with all its painful consequences.

My Own Experience

Before I got together with my first gf, I remembered that I liked her very much as a friend, and we were very close, yet I didn't know that gay relationships existed at that time, particularly for myself. I remembered during that period of time when we first got to know each other, I prayed to God to let us get together. I can't remember the exact words, but it was pretty clear that I wanted to be together with her. And so it happened. The next 5 years were the happiest years in my life, yet things had to end, and we took turns experiencing pain and all the negative emotions which came along with the break up. I guess that was what it meant, that God gives us choice, He gives us free will, and He won't stop us when we insist on our way. But there will be consequences to our choices.

Is the Lord then bad or disappointing as some who had been through failure would say? I think not. God is good, all the time. I am thankful He has sealed that revelation in my heart. That is how and why I try not to obsessive over the things I want. If they are not meant to be, they are not meant to be. It's such a thin line to draw between nonchalance and contentment. For now, I think I will just keep looking to Him.
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