Another lesson learnt

The very verse I posted on facebook is what God used to speak to me. I was rather angry yesterday and today, I felt that my words were not edifying and they were not filled with grace. And I had bitterness and anger when I was typing those messages. So I apologised.

Why am I angry? Much as I am trying to only seek God's approval in the things that I do, I can't help but be affected by what others think of me sometimes. So when I hear that some people are speaking not so edifying stuff about me behind my back, I was pissed and because i didn't deal with it persistently, it developed into bitterness and anger. why do people like to talk and speculate about others? Don't They have better thIngs to do? The first message I sent to the two of them was when I was calm, composed and rational so I was at peace with that but with the rest of the messages, I let my emotions get the better of me. Sigh. This is hard. Why must this happen.. The hard lessons that God teaches me is primarily about human relationships. Just when I felt I was a people person.. Sigh.. Humbling.

ANother lesson learnt is to share things only with only selected people. Some people can't keep their mouths shut, some people are not mature enough to handle information well..

There were other stuff that caused me to be upset but I guess it's no use talking about them. I already told that person directly why I was upset. I am surrendering all these feelings to God.
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