The letter to the 1st aft the Oz group gathering

Dear G,

I was glad to have finally met MW. It was quite amusing when we introduced each other and JS exclaimed in shock " You must be joking, you mean you two have not met??"

I guess I understood where he was coming from. He knew that we were so close during the 2 years that we were studying together and the subsequent years that followed till about a year and a half ago after you knew about my r/s with E. I would prolly be the first one you would bring MW to meet to evaluate how he's like etc. And you two have been a couple for like 6 months?

I guess I also understand that you choosing to let go A and what's his name because of me, and I guess you don't want to lose another one again especially when we have drifted apart considerably since I told you about my r/s with E. And I am saying that there nothing wrong with it. I would have understood if you wouldn't have told him about what had happened between us, because he might not be able to accept that. I do think that you should at least tell him when it comes to the time that you two are ready for marriage knowing how honest you would like to be with the love of your life.

I was disappointed and a bit hurt, that from MW's expression and the subsequent questions(she's your PE classmate?) that he asked you after JS's shocked expression, that you hardly mentioned about your "best friend" that you were good friends with for a year before we spent like 5 years of our lives together as a couple, and another year or two after that as good friends, who meet up at least once a week.

ANywayz, today's gathering was somewhat awkward, cuz I didn't really know where to place myself, and there wasn't lilke a common activity and everyone was doing their own stuff. Caring for babies, u and him watching something on the laptop, and so I went to read the papers, only to have you asked me to watch telly together with the one or two of them who had plopped themselves in front of the telly. I knew you were concerned about the way I felt, just like before, and I thanked you for that, but you didn't make me feel better by asking me to go over to join you all. I mean, what's wrong with reading papers? Did you think that I enjoyed watching what's on telly after knowing me for such a long time? I felt as if you asked me over because you think that I felt left out. You were right but you should know better to just leave me to do what I want.

Later on, after I decided to go over to watch telly, you were sensitive enough to come over to sit beside me and we started catching up a bit. I guess that's what I love about you, about how you care about how I feel, when I am around, that is. I was glad to be able to share with you about what God has been doing with FCC, the CG gals, and what my life has been revolving around. I wished though, you could be more supportive. I find it really sad that you wouldn't meet this group of ladies so dear to me. Perhaps you should question your own decision about living this straight and conventional life, just so you don't regret in future a few years down your marriage, just like some of the people I know at FCC.

Thanks for the durian treat tomorrow. I guess I will talk to you more then.

mini-me
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