my passion

my school is in need of leadership, particularly for the English department. The subject head is on maternity leave and since she extended her leave, the likelihood of her being posted back is close to zero. The English HOD is taking a year off to pursue her Masters. A, being the senior teacher for EL was extremely concerned since she's taking directives from the head. We ran through the entire staff list and could not find anyone suitable. Along the way, I was brought into the picture, of which I insisted that my specialisation is in PE, and thankfully so.

I shared with A and the other adjunct teacher over lunch that I am not passionate about English. I like reading yes, I like words yes, but I like it as a social tool, not for work. What I am passionate about is teaching the kids under my charge; helping them through the subject.. and this only can happen when I have a relationship with them, when I feel for them and want to add value to their life. That kind of love and patience can't come from anywhere else but God. It is because of God's overwhelming love that I am inclined to love. My passion is for the things of God. It is through Him I get my purpose for work other than it being a source of income. God's love helps me care and love others.

Just a realisation after the conversation about why I don't want to head the EL dept. Simply because I can't give my best to what I don't feel passionate about.
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