Soapboxing

I feel irritated because all these happened in the last hour.

-I spent a freaking 40 minutes trying to log on and when I was able to, the laptop lagged.

-My colleague gave some shit about me being not sociable when I told her I couldn't make it for an informal lunch that she organized for the level just yesterday. I already confirmed meeting V for lunch and I definitely prefer meeting V over my colleagues because their talk is not very edifying and productive most of the time, with lots of gossiping and grumbling. Granted, I know I got to be around to bond at times, I do, but there are times where I just feel that I want to be away from them. I get along well with every single one of them and feel close to them in one way or another so I do not see a problem in not hanging around sometimes.

I do have to organize a lunch/hi tea thingy for the entire level next week to “compensate” for my absence today. Afterall, I am overall in charge for the graduation day which the level is anchoring. That is PR-ing.

I guess why I was irritated because her very loud voice resounded over the whole staff room when she said that I am not sociable. What was very disappointing is that she is my churchmate, and supposedly my “best friend” at the work place. I understand that is her nature, to just blurt out whatever she feels. She knows it's a problem too, but it's just disturbing sometimes especially when she tekkans me in her very loud voice, injuring my very fragile heart. I do thank God for the positive self-esteem that He had built in me over the years and that I feel secure in Him, or else I might just turn into a bitter person and bite back. The positive self-esteem protects the heart to a great extent.

-My sister asked me if I could pick her up from Ngee Ann Poly at 5-6p.m. and when I told her 5p.m. she asked if I could come at 545p.m. so she can accompany her friend because her friend has dragonboat training at 630p.m. and she didn't want to let her wait. I already told her I had to give tuition at 6p.m. but she continued to negotiate the time with me. This is a small matter and wouldn’t affect me on normal days but together with what my collegue said, I feel very irritated lor………

And all these came after praying for over an hour this morning. What's up, God? Spiritual Warfare?

Anywayz, in desperation for a word, I asked J what her revelation from God was because under her tagline, she wrote " I have a revelation. Awesome!" she shared this verse with me .

1 Thess 5:16-18
rejoice always, praying without ceasing, and in everything give thanks, for this is the will of the Lord in Christ Jesus for you.

and this:

Giving thanks in the midst of an adverse situation, a difficulty intended to undermine your faith and destroy you, enables you to take hold of that situation and set it apart to God and His purpose.

That is encouragment enough for me. AMEN AMEN AMEN. I feel much much better now. And I thank God for fellow sisters in christ!

On another note, a sweet sweet friend gave me two 4-yolk mooncakes yesterday even though I was supposed to celebrate her bday for/with her. I felt like it was my birthday! :)

Off for lunch and looking forward to an awesome time of fellowship now!
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