A day of lessons

I made that mistake once, and I made the same mistake again. And I guess God has to knock me harder this time so I can finally learn.

I was very thankful for H, who's honest enough with me regarding what she feels about what I wrote to A. And I thank God for her honesty. Knowing that I had done something that wasn't right made me very embarrassed of course, but I thank God for her because of the manner in which she shared her opinions with me, which kinda made it easier for me to receive what she said.

1) I didn't have to make conclusions about what she did. For constructive purposes, I should have just stated how I felt about what she did or didn't do to me and how it affects me and not bring other situations non-relating to me into the picture.

I agree with that. I shouldn't have exercised my judgement on her. It might just cause her to be more defensive and not help the situation one bit.

2) I need not spell her name out and posted the letter on blogspot.

My explanation for this is that it would be good to update those who have been praying about this matter. But yep. I also agree it is not good to put this on public domain although none of those who knows her would get to read about this. Anyway, the entry has been taken down.

3) The end of the email was kinda abrupt and didn't indicate any avenue for a follow up.

Yep. I am going to follow up with another email to her to apologize with the judgement part and also to ask to speak about it if she likes.

4) I could have placed myself in her shoes and seen that the reason why she said the things she said to me was because she had too much on her plate and couldn't understand why people could do work at a slower pace and that she cared too much to not make a fuss about things.

All true. Sigh. This passed over my mind once or twice before, but I guess I was too consumed about how I felt that I couldn't have a bigger heart to accept that.

It was all too humbling for me. Today is a day of lessons for me, from the sermon in the morning, to the conversation with H about this matter, to learning the evangecube in mandarin, to learning how to play the TWISTER game for real, to learning servanthood from my DG members, to learning about the power of the holy spirit, to learning how powerful prayers are to heal and make things better, to learning how God speaks through about anywhere and anyone as long as my heart is ready to receive.

I just pray that I become a better person everyday.
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