food for thought (while listening to Weezer & Ash)

I have a dear friend, who used to be straight for a while, then decided that she likes women. She was in one or 2 relationships after she found out about her attraction to women.. She is a woman after God's own heart, and often is plagued by the guilt of her attraction to women. Throughout these 2 years that I have known her, we have grown much closer due to our common factor in desiring to see God work in our lives.

Through these 2 years also, I heard about her struggle between wanting to be straight and her feelings for the different women she met.. When I was talking to her online again today, I guess I was able to relate to how she was feeling in terms of that unsettled heart when one is single and searching/waiting/anticipating something to come. That brought back the thought that had come up before, but never thought about deep enough to write anything about, that perhaps, it's more possible to grow better spiritually when two christians are settled in a lifetime monogamous relationship rather than being single and searching/waiting/anticipating something.

I guess through these 4 months, I can relate to this better; the possiblities are endless; the people I met, the people I am introduced to, the people I am interested to know as more than a friend, the people who are interested to know me as more than a friend. Sometimes, I feel like I get caught up in this endless cycle of looking out for that lifetime partner that it sometimes overwhelmes the more important things in life. Just sometimes. But I don't really like to live an ineffective life. Life is too short and precious to live like that.

So.. I think, in summary, to not live a purposeless and ineffective life,

1) It's best to be single and not searching.
2) If we really need to be with someone, pray that we will find someone right, and then settle down and get married.

haha..

Anywayz, Weezer and Ash have the cutest lyrics I know.. They Might Be Giants too.. haha.. I really enjoy listening to their music. I tried looking for ASH 1977 album but Borders do not have it. :( And I can't remember who borrowed mine.
.