ranting

I am feeling slightly overwhelmed and stressed by my studies. I think I am being very hard on myself. I tell myself that it's okay not to be able to understand everything that's presented to me all at once, that there's still quite a bit of time to study before the exam. And that it's an open book exam. I never thought of myself as a perfectionist and I still do not think so. That's 40% of this course.

Regarding my assignment which is another 40% , I think I am too ambitious in my approach. I am stimulated and excited when that happens. but what my tutor was asking was less than that. He wanted something simple. I ought to be more systematic in my approach and do things one step at a time, one thing at a time rather than think that big and stress myself.

I am doing well for my other 20% which is made up off 4 x 5% quiz at the end of every lesson. I should be fine.

I need to really concentrate on my studies now that I don't have to go to work anymore. I need to try not to log onto sgcarmart too often. It's hard to resist not getting a car and focus on saving for my flat instead. I can't say I don't need a car. Having a car saves me heaps of time. Maybe I really don't need a car. The truth is, I like cars that are different. I like everything that is different. But the price is too costly to pay for the unique most of the time. So I quote ridiculous prices for the cars I like and pray that if it's meant to be, the owners will agree to that price, but it has not happened yet.

Someone asked me to set a price I would pay since there are so many choices and I am ever so random. I told her that beauty and cuteness is priceless. It's a matter of whether I am willing to or not.
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