ranking

so it was time for the annual ranking.

A friend shared insider news that perhaps this school is not a good place to stay in. That means my ranking at work this year is not that good. How one is ranked is based on their CEP (current estimated potential) as well as how much we have performed above and beyond what we are paid to do as teachers because our rank determines our performance bonuses we will receive in year 2013.

By God's grace, I have been averaging a B since I came to this school, which to me, is very good given that my workload is 3/4 of a regular teachers' load. And the truth is, ranking doesn't matter to me as much as recognising what I have done and given to the kids. In my previous school, a friend, an EL HOD used to tell me that visibility is very important in teaching when they are ranking teachers. Till together, I disagree with that. Sometimes, doing things with the mindset to exhibit what you had done to others makes the task less meaningful. Maybe I am more intrinsically motivated, and maybe sometimes, doing what's good for the pupils may not necessarily come in a presentable form.

I know my CEP won't be high because I said no to my VP (nicely of course) when she asked me to take up this position in the PW department but I was a bit upset when I think that my other contributions are deemed as not important or sufficient (I don't know what the management think and say, and the insider gets an A grade occasionally (only one person per school gets A), so his standard of what constitutes a good grade may be skewed).

 I was planning in my head what I would write to the managment next year if I get anything lower than a C grade; like how I am probably the only teacher who can manage and teach my current class of 36, that there are 4 HODs teaching my class Math and Sci (which means they only have maximum 20 pupils in their class) AND their results are not improving much, like how I am the only PE teacher in the PE department who ensures that what is done every year is brand new for the event I am placed in charged of (the rest just modifies the template from the previous years), and how I am the only one who invited an extraordinary guest for Motivational Day. Thinking about all these made me feel better. And made me think. What the heck. As long as my conscience is clear and God sees all that I do, that's good enough.
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