36 hours worth of entries

 thoughts in the air, 3a.m

God told me to slow down. 

Many times, in the midst and the excitement of ministering and sharing, I sacrifice precious time waiting at his feet to be ministered by the holy spirit.

I wait at His feet, I draw from His living waters, and thereafter, I give. And the cycle continues.

The song that ministered greatly on the plane:

Holy holy holy

Oh God almighty

Early in the morning

Our souls shall rise to thee

Holy holy holy

Merciful and mighty

God in three persons

Blessed trinity

And He says to me: I am using you to bless the world. You are not using me to bless the world. Stop rushing and wait on me.

 Praying:

One thing I find that I get very excited about praying is the appearance of certain words in my mind in the midst of praying. Over time, I began to realize that the holy spirit places these words in my mind, so I know how to pray accurately for others. 

The bible says that though we don't know what to pray for but the holy spirit intercedes on our behalf for the saints. 

Scoot:

Scoot isn't that bad a budget airline. For one, it departed on time and the stewards and stewardess try their best. I didn't like paying $5 for Nissin cup noodles made in Indonesia though. It tasted different. A bad kind of different. 

Also, they could have given us more space since the flight was half full instead of squeezing all of us in a section. All in all, I won't mind flying by Scoot again. It's cheap and if the flights are going to be this empty all the time, the prices will remain competitive.

Communing with God:

Just last week, a friend was asking me whether it was possible communing with God with both the mind, and the heart. She said that she needed to find the missing link because some people do not understand her when she simply tells them to go with the flow and feel God in their hearts.

Why do I say both the mind and heart is necessary for that to happen? It is important to be aware that emotions and feelings change, especially after the honeymoon period, and yes, it applies to our relationship with God too. If we are blessed enough with the strength to continue to commune with god at a deep level all the days of our lives, bravo. But for those who have been along this journey for a while certainly know that it's not happily ever after after the point of salvation. In order to know what to do to keep that communion deep and intimate, we need to know what factors cause us to have that close and intimate bond with God. 

Like any relationships, we feel closest to our love ones when we give and take, when we communicate, when we spend time hearing each other out. It's all about time spent in knowing each other, isn't it? 

There are also distractors that take away our capacity to give that attention to our loved ones, aren't there? When our minds constantly think about our goals, our dreams, our work, our social life, money, we fail to have that quality communication with our loved ones.

In the same way, how we spend time with God also determines the depth of communion with him. If we don't have time with him getting to know Him, His character through the bible, through sermons, through christian fellowship, if we do not have the time to meditate on His word, bask in His love, sit at His feet and be ministered by His presence; if we have too many distractions in our mind, how will we hear from Him, right?

The accommodation:

Am really blessed by the accommodation at Old Holiday Inn. It has a pool view to kill for . And I think I thank God for the name of the hotel. Looking down at the lobby this morning, I see older guests (as in grandmothers and grandfathers kinda age). 

What is the significance? No screaming kids, no loud drunkards, just quiet peeps having quiet conversations. Most of then would have finished their pool chilling session by 9am so it's just my sis and another young couple who's quietly reading. 

Very blessed morning. :) I would love for a cell group retreat here sometime but maybe when we are much older and have no need to rush, be wild and lively. Lol. 

Oxford Street

Got goosebumps for all 5 minutes of the ride on the way to Bondi seeing all the rainbow flags along the entire stretch of Oxford street which says "the city of Sydney". How nice. It gives me a really warm feeling knowing that being a practising glbt is not illegal over here. Also passed Wattle hotel, the hotel where the ex and I stayed in for 3 days when we were here.

My dear Aussie mate:

My dear Aussie friend (formerly the bassist at FCC) asked me in the midst of our conversation: so who do you talk about sex to when I left Singapore? ( we weren't talking about sex). It's a funny question because we don't talk about sex very often when we were in Singapore, not in my opinion any way.

It was a good session of catching up over dinner, shopping and dessert. She brought me to Newtown, this long stretch of shops and restaurants near the city (like river valley). I saw quite a few lesbian couples through the night. She told me there was a monthly lesbian party on Friday but I told her it is not really my cup of tea.

I asked if she wanted to attend the Saturday evening hillsong service with me. I was quite surprised to hear that she has not attended Hillsong church in her life. She said she doesn't mind accompanying me but she will need some really strong drinks after that. That was hilarious. I told her to start drinking so she will be filled with the spirit by Saturday evening. Haha.

Looking forward to Hillsong service!
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