Call me Nancy Drew

it's quite surreal when you read the news about this stalker woman who has been charged in court for stalking an ex ST correspondent for 4 years and a few minutes later, find out that her facebook page is still in existence. And open for all to see.

Being the busybody that I am, I went through her facebook wall and photos and found out that she's a christian and attending Victory Family Centre. She doesn't seem like half the crazy person the victim described her to be. There were recordings of her voice messages and excerpts of her emails to the victim though.

I recognised the victim too. She's the sister of one of G's best friends. I thought she was straight and with a bf then. But it seems like they are no longer together. I wonder if the stalker and the victim were ever in a relationship. Such a busybody I am. I think I will thrive being a private investigator. :)
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the next break..

is happening in less than 48 hours.

I am really desperately needing to breathe some cool air. I love winter as long as it is above 15 degrees celsius.

I am also slightly amused by my need to travel so much. Deep down, I can be really restless. Unfortunately or fortunately depending on how you see it, this year is a major saving year for the sake of the flat next Feb. I did say that I wasn't going to go to a country I have been before. Technically speaking, I am still keeping to my reso because this trip is a blessing from a special person. I am continually giving thanks for blessings bountiful. It's all about perspective anyway when it comes to blessings.. Anywayz, I am slowly yet surely working towards that goal.

Enough rambling. My goal tonight is to find my research article and get it printed out by tomorrow so I can do some work on the plane. Yahoooooooooooo!
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crossroads

am pretty much at some crossroads in my life. Nothing that would cause me to be too distressed or unrested, but just things to pray through and pray about.

I am praying about whether I should apply for a transfer to my old P's school when the application period opens up in June. A colleague said she's going. She told me that 6 staff are confirmed going. And there are 14 vacancies left in that school. That made me a little anxious. I know my P has told me before that there's place over there for me yet I didn't feel that God has called me to move next year, at least not at this moment. And I certainly hope that the knowledge that I might NOT get a place when the vacancies are all filled up will not drive me to make the decision that God did not lead me to make. Right now, my concern is take this batch of kids through to secondary school.

Things I want to start doing though:
Communicate for a longer time with the Lord everyday.
Do not give up in making people's lives better by availing myself.
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one reason why I don't bother about certain people that much

I believe there can be a stage of a few months to a year that someone can be in a depressed, needy and whiny mode because of some circumstance that has happened. But I also believe that people should quickly move beyond their circumstances especially when they know of a God so big that He can solve all problems, in His time.

I believe we can only help people who wants to be helped. There are people who persist on sharing the same sort of problems, dwelling on the same issue over and over again, either because of their reluctance to step out of their comfort zone, their unwillingness to commit their situation to God and rest or that they merely want attention or have an ego-booster.

Maybe they do not see how God can help them through the situation. Maybe they don't really want to change the way things are. Unfortunately, for cases like that, I can only tolerate up to a certain extent, especially when I can't see how they might want a friendship other than having their needs met.

That's very unchristian way of thinking. But I am working on it. And I am sure God will work on me in this area. It's regardless of how people are like, it's how we should be like as followers of Christ. But that aside, certain groups of people are wired to have that level of patience with people like that. Not me.

My ex DGL was just sharing how she can't have the energy to keep up with someone/a couple for more than 1-2 years. (She's a counselor). However, she said her husband complemented her that way, that he has the patience to be with his counselee for 3-4 years. Wow. I am amazed. This kind of person inspires me to be better.
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that's what I mean by being sarcastic

In my friend's poster on FB:

Rule 5: If you do something (or say something) really stupid, never blame it on the booze or on being drunk.

I was really tempted to say I like Rule 5 because I know she can read my friend's fb page. But because I facilitated yesterday's session on love, I have to reconsider that option, confess my provoking nature and repent of such thoughts.

Move on already Shen!
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about love

the point is this. Only God can give that overwhelming love that helps us to love people who are unlovable; not just people whom we love, whom we like, who has a connection with us, who are nice to us, who are nice to look at, who are nice to hang out with.

To fix the symptom is only temporary.

To fix the root of the problem requires a transformation of the heart.
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where are they in this circle?

I want to meet with like-minded believers, spiritually mature people whose hearts are wholly after God's heart. no agenda except God's, not making pleasure, leisure and work priority before God.
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