hugs and more

The kids are getting used to the hugs. Fewer kids hi-fived me. One boy hugged me thrice yesterday. So sweet. I was standing outside the class waiting for a student to come to me when a few others came out of the classroom to be hugged. After school today, I was seated with another student and a few of them hung around. When I asked them why they were hanging around, they said they wanted a hug. So it was a nice group hug for all of us.

I punished 5 students by making them stand outside the class for not doing their homework. One of them was the monitor. He almost always does his homework, but I got to be impartial. When he handed in his work, he didn't come forward for a hug. Neither did he make eye contact. I asked him over because everyone is supposed to give me either a hug, a hi-five or a handshake (a system a dear friend had suggested) and he came almost immediately.

I think these kids have gotten into the system of being rewarded when they are good and vice versa In a sense, because of his family situation, I don't think he has ever experienced unconditional love. I hope that in giving him a hug even though he was punished, he could catch a glimpse of this type of love.
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Random mid week thought

There are two periods of time when people will draw closest to God and feel His presence the most; when they are exhilarated and thankful or when they are in pain and in desperation. God loves for us to draw near to Him during these times, but I think more precious to Him is that we come to Him at all times. How would we feel if our family members, friends and loved ones come closest to us only when we need them.

Thank God for His unending grace upon us!

"His love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on us" - Jesus Culture
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Praying..

I think the idea is kinda taking shape.

Gals who desire to grow in the Lord, who believes in accountability for one another's growth and who are currently not in a CG.
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One Heart Part 4

We would have followed up and asked about one another's struggles and prayer requests through the week.. because we have remembered and prayed.
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If every Monday night was like this:

Finally got my lippie at J8 last night! I like Ettusais because their lipstick doesn't smell even after one year (that's how long I take for one lipstick) expensive compared to normal brands though. Paid $31 for it. Bought 2 sticks. 

Classes ended on time yesterday, which was unusual because they usually end about 20mins early. I made it in time to catch the movie at J8. It was a last minute decision and a good one. Super entertaining. Even my friend who often sleeps at the movies could keep awake the entire time. We were accompanied by hot hot curry puffs and garetts popcorn. Omg. So good. I felt pampered by good food, ESP the heat hot curry puff. Hot food is always good.

It's gonna be a really busy Oct for me. Both the individual 60% assignment and 20% group assignment are due 31st Oct. Grrr. Ganbette! Nov will Be a better month.
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I am late

but I am not pregnant. So I must be stressed.

Well, I thought it was because of the anniversary service that I was stressed. I was half expecting it to come right after the service like it did the previous few times I had to play for service, but it didn't. So I reckon it's stress.

Stess about what? I think I am getting increasingly irritated and frustrated with the ex. She wrote me an email to tell me that she's unfriending me on facebook until we develop a friendship in real life. At that moment in time, I felt like sticking my finger in my throat and puking. Weird expression but that was how I felt. Haiz. Why must it be so dramatic.. it's like so kiddish and childish lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ARGH. There are other stuff too that I can't mention on public space but so irritated lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Maybe cuz it's not here yet. Quick come and bring me out of my PMS stage........................................

ARGH!! I better start on my assignment like right now.
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Saturday morning thought

Was pretty amused by a few of my friend's admirers. They seem to still hold on to the hope that she would say yes to them even though she has told them clearly that she is just happy being friends. I don't think I ever had someone as persistent about their liking for me. 

It's a good and a bad thing. The good thing is that they let go and they move on. The bad thing is that it's nearly impossible for me to have that same ease as I had talking to them before they had professed their feelings for me, simply because I do not want to lead them on. I realized that with people like that, I tend to be less contactable, less responsive, less friendly, less affectionate, less touchy, less everything else. I guess that helped them let go and move on. There's also a slight difference to my natural caring self. So it's sad that the level of friendship is no longer the same until either of us gets attached. And for some people, things between us were never the same as before. Sad but inevitable?

I feel a bit sad sometimes. Maybe I am being overly responsible, to the point that I "mother" people too much sometimes. I guess it's just my nature and perhaps an occupational hazard. I keep reminding myself that everyone is an adult and they can take care of themselves and I am not responsible for them but I am still unsure how much to let go at times. I guess it's a learning journey for me. Afterall, this is pretty new to me. All these prolly started only in the past few years or so. Praying that I would be able to handle things in the most ideal way in time to come.

Am checking out on this random thought on this Sunny SAturday morning.
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