Saturday morning thought

Was pretty amused by a few of my friend's admirers. They seem to still hold on to the hope that she would say yes to them even though she has told them clearly that she is just happy being friends. I don't think I ever had someone as persistent about their liking for me. 

It's a good and a bad thing. The good thing is that they let go and they move on. The bad thing is that it's nearly impossible for me to have that same ease as I had talking to them before they had professed their feelings for me, simply because I do not want to lead them on. I realized that with people like that, I tend to be less contactable, less responsive, less friendly, less affectionate, less touchy, less everything else. I guess that helped them let go and move on. There's also a slight difference to my natural caring self. So it's sad that the level of friendship is no longer the same until either of us gets attached. And for some people, things between us were never the same as before. Sad but inevitable?

I feel a bit sad sometimes. Maybe I am being overly responsible, to the point that I "mother" people too much sometimes. I guess it's just my nature and perhaps an occupational hazard. I keep reminding myself that everyone is an adult and they can take care of themselves and I am not responsible for them but I am still unsure how much to let go at times. I guess it's a learning journey for me. Afterall, this is pretty new to me. All these prolly started only in the past few years or so. Praying that I would be able to handle things in the most ideal way in time to come.

Am checking out on this random thought on this Sunny SAturday morning.
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