my dad

I feel very sad for him. Because he's still tube fed. He seems resigned to the fact that it will be a long long time before the tube gets taken off. I pray not, but it feels so too. I feel sad that he had been longing to eat western food since mid June but he's not able to. I feel sad thinking about the side effects radiation is causing him. I feel sad at the thought that perhaps he enjoys spending time at the hospital beacuse he can feel normal with the tube hanging from his nose because only the sick hangs out at the hospital. In a way, I am glad the hospital is big enough for him to take a walk around, probably the only place he feels comfortable walking at. :(

I feel sad. I pray that he will be well soon, and pray that he will be able to resume life. :( It's so sad that he has hardly enjoyed retirement that he has to go through this :(
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