Scarred problem-solver

Isn't listening to one repetitive problem better than several different new problems?

That question got me thinking why there was the "roll eyes" moment the moment the question was posed.

Listening attentively is exhausting. Listening empathetically is even more exhausting. Trying to help someone overcome their problem without a change in their situation week after week is energy zapping given that I am a preferred introvert. Then when I realized that they were merely airing their grievances and displeasure but not as keen to take active steps to change their situations, I kinda give up.

I wondered why I had swung to this extreme. Then I remembered what I had put my friends through with the similar situation I was in when I was with my second partner; bringing to them the same problem time and again yet not taking their advice to leave because I had not the strength to step out of the situation. I was not emotionally strong enough then. Perhaps that's why I have swung to this extreme; of trying to just let go, move on and not look back.

And I think the reason why I kept having to justify this- I guess there is still a modicum amount of guilt after from hearing what the latest ex had said about me after the break up.

Sure. There is relief when the past has passed but every past leaves scars.. Praying that I would finally totally move on soon.
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