heartbreaker

When G and I were studying in Oz, people always wonder why 2 nice gals like us were still single and available. This guy friend of ours said this to us then," Go out with guys, break a few hearts before you settle down, it's your right." I found it cute then when he shared that he had his heart broken a few times and wasn't bitter about it. It showed me that he accepted that it was part and parcel of being a man. It showed me how much he appreciated women.

I didn't think that it was right to break hearts. I still don't think that it is right to break hearts. I never would do that deliberately. I realised recently that sometimes, just by being the person I am, I have broken a few hearts along the way. I am no saint, I can't help the way I feel sometimes. I don't always have the self-control to restrain the honest feelings that I reveal, whether those are positive emotions or negative ones. I don't always have the ability to handle matters right. I only know that in all that I do, I am sincere and try my best to keep my conscience clear.

The only comforting thing then I thought was that I always try to do the right things which is better than doing something wrong. And I can't always be responsible for how others feel because of my honesty. I struggle with this and how it seems to go against not being someone's stumbling block. I pray for wisdom in handling situations like that and that God will make me a better person each day.

me is no good to be in a r/s with.
me thinks too much. me is too careful. me is too fussy. me has high expectations. me is too high maintenance. me might just be single for the rest of me life.
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