one of the best locally produced songs I have heard

NCC

http://www.imeem.com/whitelionat2003/music/JCKUB0YM/new_creation_church_live_worship_im_held_by_your_love_sea/

I'm held by Your love,
I'm held by Your strength
on Your shoulders You bore me
by Your faith I stand

Bridge
Cherished by You, Lord,
Treasured in Your sight
So close to Your heart
Held firm in Your hands

Chorus
So awesome is Your love
So mighty is Your hand
On eagles' wings You carried me,
Your grace shall be my strength

So perfect is Your love
You sacrificed Your Son
Amazing love, reached out to me,
With joy to You I come

Not by my wisdom,
Not by my strength,
Gently You guide me,
Lead me by hand

Bridge
Total surrender
Jesus I am Yours
Now and forever
In Christ I now stand
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If only..

These two words sort of lifted up my mood in the afternoon. I lolled around in bed for a full half an hour feeling a sian-ness at 6a.m. in the morning!

After I read someone's blog about how she just dates without feeling very much for her date, I thought about how people might get jaded after failed relationships so they go out, not willing to feel much until the other party shows that they are interested. It was then I realised that I am not jaded after all. It's a thin line to draw between having bad self-control and not being jaded. I was prepared to get burnt, just so I will feel alive. On normal days and occasions, I wouldn't go out on a Wednesday night and be willing to stay out late if I have a major event on Thursday morning.

The adrenalin keeps me going.

On another note, the event was a huge success for both the morning and the afternoon sessions. I am so thankful. I danced Bangra 4 times in half an hour. Phew. And I am glad it's finally over!

I thank God for prayer warriors. :)
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food for thought

Actually, after I made 12 sets of notes (X 6 pages) plus 6 pieces of worship slips at work, I felt a bit bad. How much of office stationary can we use for personal use before it is wrong? And how much of how I feel is legalism?

Duno leh. I have this uneasy feeling inside me, it's not so much head knowledge that it might not be right, but what I feel in my heart.

How do we draw the line between being legalistic and following the spirit? What is the right spirit? And how do we know when we have the right spirit?
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hmmm...

Something is not quite right when you pray for this girl you are hanging out with more than you pray for your parents.
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A Classic

This song ministered to me everytime I hear it. I remembered there was one time I was so broken this song really reminded me again who can truly restore, love, and make me feel complete. 

I guess one thing I learnt is that when a relationship ends, that devoted love that was promised ends too. That's when I realise that there is no other love that is as constant, as enduring, as consistent as God's amazing love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wk7nfr8SSW8&feature=related

Complete - Parachute Band

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

what i gathered from Clarence's sermon last Sunday

I thought his sermon was really good. One of the best that I heard from FCC that I benefitted from.

Some takeaways:

1) God wants us to rest sometimes.

2) God is a god who is practical. He fulfills our practical needs. Look at fulfilling someone's practical needs.

3) Just listen, like in Job. They sat for 7 days and just listened. When they started talking, everything went downhill.

4) Our feelings might be real, but they might not be accurate.

5) We need a fresh new vision of God. He is a God who is alive, so He will give live experiences when we walk with Him daily. People who get burnt out are people who ran out of testimonies to share about that after a while, they lean on their own human strength for sustanance.

6) Fellowship is important. Everyone experiences God differently. He has many different facets. We learn more about the different facets of God from people sharing their own personal experiences with God.
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Aggressively Happy

At my Dad's 60th birthday, I wished I was more involved and proactive in planning a big birthday bash for him. :( Anywayz, I just learnt from my auntie that the whole family goes to NCC now. :) They weren't christians before. I am happy. I wished my parents and my sis are too, :( then I wouldn't be too worried about them.

Yesterday, SC said that NCCers are aggresively happy. I laughed so loud and it wasn't the martini at work. I really laughed! Because I know what she meant. She was talking about her sister. Anywayz, I just got to know one NCCer online, just chatting with her, and yes, she is mostly very happy, not yet sure if she's aggressively happy.

I made my stand before, that though I have a problem agreeing with some stuff that NCC preaches, I believe that the reason why people go to the church they choose is because they grow best there. Every church is imperfect because it is made up of imperfect humans, God will sort that out gradually, but every church has its purpose for God's kingdom. So no church/theology bashing, unless the non-negotiables differ.
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