my sister is so funnee. THis was our conversation over whatspp.
Sis: I'm inside a church now! First time!
me: Which church? Friend's wedding?
Sis:At Punggol. Triple C church, It's called Christianity cxxxxx church. They gt singing competition and my 2 friends are the judges then I am taking a lift from them later to kovan so I came along with them.
the people there always look at me lo. I feel like I have entered a lion's den.. scary..
it's called central christian church. Always got people find and tok to me. Sianz. Tha's why I 'm trying to keep myself busy appsing so I appear busy.
Me:It's a cult!
Sis: Huh?! Tell me more!!
MeL (googled) -Htto://www.factnet.org/straits.htm.
Sis: I don't dare read it here. Wiat gt pple see me read.
SO farney lah! I always suspected she's attracted to women too, just that she doesn't know. Maybe I should come out to her.
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Saturday, July 9, 2011
assuring myself
well, yesterday's conversation was also partly about our exes. The conversation was long. Someone once told me that she doesn't trust my taste in women because she knows my 2 exes. *rolls eyes*. Anywayz, the 2 of them also said yesterday that I don't have good taste but in terms of looks they say. *rolls eyes*.
It takes me a lot to be attracted to someone physically, at least enough for me to see the possibility of something more than a friendship with them. For both my exes, I wasn't attracted to them physically at all when I first met them. But I knew there was something more about them that made me agree to continue to meet up and get to know them better as a potential partner to be. There were/are many others who had liked me/likes me and I do not feel the same way. Also, there was this very nice, kind-hearted and gorgeous lady who was interested in me romantically. I was attracted to her too but somehow, I was hesitant in wanting a relationship with her.. that only goes to conclude that I am not superficial :P and that I am able to see that x-factor in that someone that I want to be in a relationship in. Just that maybe not many people will be able to see what that x-factor is. Hehehe..
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It takes me a lot to be attracted to someone physically, at least enough for me to see the possibility of something more than a friendship with them. For both my exes, I wasn't attracted to them physically at all when I first met them. But I knew there was something more about them that made me agree to continue to meet up and get to know them better as a potential partner to be. There were/are many others who had liked me/likes me and I do not feel the same way. Also, there was this very nice, kind-hearted and gorgeous lady who was interested in me romantically. I was attracted to her too but somehow, I was hesitant in wanting a relationship with her.. that only goes to conclude that I am not superficial :P and that I am able to see that x-factor in that someone that I want to be in a relationship in. Just that maybe not many people will be able to see what that x-factor is. Hehehe..
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the start of the weekend
it was an exhausting week at work. Having to wait 1 hour for a ride before a late dinner didn't help. Dinner was great though. Conversation was comfortable so I could space out for a bit while the other two talked. Crabs were good but weren't fantastic but no complaints. We walked (very slowly) to East Coast Lagoon Hawker Centre where the King's auntie sells fabulous $1 ice-cream, bought some and walked back to the car park at snail pace again. That's what happens when you walk with older people. Hehe.
I like talking to older people though. THey possess a simple kind of wisdom that can only come with experience and age.
I was so tired I even napped in the car while listening to Stonewalled. I really like FCC"s album. I think it's amazing how God can use FCC to minister to so many. I lent my cd to my colleague who's obviously gay but keeps denying that he is. About a year ago, I even came out to him in hope that he would do the same. Yesterday, he pulled me aside and told me about him and his partner. I told him I knew it all along. Was just waiting for him to be ready to admit that to me.
He's thinking of visiting FCC. I pray that God will use him and the many gifts that He has bestowed upon him once he's ready.
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I like talking to older people though. THey possess a simple kind of wisdom that can only come with experience and age.
I was so tired I even napped in the car while listening to Stonewalled. I really like FCC"s album. I think it's amazing how God can use FCC to minister to so many. I lent my cd to my colleague who's obviously gay but keeps denying that he is. About a year ago, I even came out to him in hope that he would do the same. Yesterday, he pulled me aside and told me about him and his partner. I told him I knew it all along. Was just waiting for him to be ready to admit that to me.
He's thinking of visiting FCC. I pray that God will use him and the many gifts that He has bestowed upon him once he's ready.
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Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Our thanksgiving
It is so easy giving updates to people u meet infrequently. There are so many changes to talk about.
During cell group, it's different. we share updates about our lives every other week so it's evident if the previous week is just like any other weeks. To me, cg then can be a very good gauge tracking our "growth" in some sense.
It's not the number of changes or exciting events that's of significance but rather, how we are challenged and how god has worked in our lives recently. We want to recall previous miracles of God only to be reminded of His track record in our lives. We don't want to share stale stories about what God had done for us before or what we had done for Him long ago. We want to share about the ever exciting work our living God has done and are doing for us.
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During cell group, it's different. we share updates about our lives every other week so it's evident if the previous week is just like any other weeks. To me, cg then can be a very good gauge tracking our "growth" in some sense.
It's not the number of changes or exciting events that's of significance but rather, how we are challenged and how god has worked in our lives recently. We want to recall previous miracles of God only to be reminded of His track record in our lives. We don't want to share stale stories about what God had done for us before or what we had done for Him long ago. We want to share about the ever exciting work our living God has done and are doing for us.
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Sunday, July 3, 2011
So easy wan meh?
While I was at badminton one day, a friend who just very recently found out about my break up which happened at the beginning of this year asked another badminton pal and I: since two of you are single, why don't you get together?
I wonder if that's the way things run in the lesbian world. You meet, there's some form of chemistry, both are single and can get along and have no major issues with the way each other looks, then it's alright to get together.
Because my mindset about getting into a relationship is for it to last, i consider many other factors so I will be able to give my best to this person whom I have chosen to give my heart to. I usually consider our compatibility levels in all aspects; spiritual- there's always something attractive about someone who desires to know and love God more, one who has a sense of purpose to live out their lives as God leads; emotional- the ability to be involved and engaged at about the same level, I think that's the main reason why I prefer women over men, it is the level of emotional involvement, when mutual, causes me to feel closer to that person; mental- doesn't have to be highly intelligent but someone who's able to articulate her thoughts clearly and think about the deeper issues in life, someone who's witty and able to make me laugh and smile... and physical- because I thrive on the endorphins from exercising and feel lethargic when I don't,I prolly won't last very long with someone who doesn't include regular exercise in their lives.
It is not as easy for me as others.
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I wonder if that's the way things run in the lesbian world. You meet, there's some form of chemistry, both are single and can get along and have no major issues with the way each other looks, then it's alright to get together.
Because my mindset about getting into a relationship is for it to last, i consider many other factors so I will be able to give my best to this person whom I have chosen to give my heart to. I usually consider our compatibility levels in all aspects; spiritual- there's always something attractive about someone who desires to know and love God more, one who has a sense of purpose to live out their lives as God leads; emotional- the ability to be involved and engaged at about the same level, I think that's the main reason why I prefer women over men, it is the level of emotional involvement, when mutual, causes me to feel closer to that person; mental- doesn't have to be highly intelligent but someone who's able to articulate her thoughts clearly and think about the deeper issues in life, someone who's witty and able to make me laugh and smile... and physical- because I thrive on the endorphins from exercising and feel lethargic when I don't,I prolly won't last very long with someone who doesn't include regular exercise in their lives.
It is not as easy for me as others.
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Supple skin and dressing sexily
Two days ago, my colleague, a senior teacher, was sitting beside me and commented the skin on my legs is very supple unlike hers. She commented how important it is for younger ones to wear whatever they want when they are younger before the skin loses its elasticity. For me, I don't like unnecessary attention on me. Aside from my partner, I don't like others to look at me. That's precisely why I don't really enjoy dressing up unless I really need to. That is just me me and me..
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Saturday, July 2, 2011
OMG!!!
I am looking at cars already! This is not possible. Someone bet that I will get a car within 2 months. I can't remember what the bet was though.
But I am blessed really. Since the day I passed the car to my dad, I have only taken the cab twice I think. I have been blessed by friends who offer to drive me to badminton, home from badminton (that ride I really rejected but the driver was persistent). Wow. It is actually quite timely that the owner of the red rocket is away for 3 weeks and told me that I could use her car. It's a weekend car though so I just needed to buy the E-day pass if I use it on a weekday.
THis morning, while driving along the expressway, looking at the different cars on the road, I can't help but draw a parallel to being single. Just like one who is single who has the freedom to look at anyone she likes without being chided, I can freely look at the different cars on the road and take my time to contemplate which car I would get if I am getting one. IF I am getting one. IF I am getting one. IF IF IF.
But I shall be the femme for now. Let others drive me. :p Am talking about cab drivers.
Submitted my assignment online last night. Didn't want to be stressed and rushed tomorrow. Went back to work and printed the assignment out. Now to the pool to read my notes for the exam before a relaxing evening. So far, by the grace of God, I am still on task. I do wish I was studying full-time though.
Ciaoz!
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But I am blessed really. Since the day I passed the car to my dad, I have only taken the cab twice I think. I have been blessed by friends who offer to drive me to badminton, home from badminton (that ride I really rejected but the driver was persistent). Wow. It is actually quite timely that the owner of the red rocket is away for 3 weeks and told me that I could use her car. It's a weekend car though so I just needed to buy the E-day pass if I use it on a weekday.
THis morning, while driving along the expressway, looking at the different cars on the road, I can't help but draw a parallel to being single. Just like one who is single who has the freedom to look at anyone she likes without being chided, I can freely look at the different cars on the road and take my time to contemplate which car I would get if I am getting one. IF I am getting one. IF I am getting one. IF IF IF.
But I shall be the femme for now. Let others drive me. :p Am talking about cab drivers.
Submitted my assignment online last night. Didn't want to be stressed and rushed tomorrow. Went back to work and printed the assignment out. Now to the pool to read my notes for the exam before a relaxing evening. So far, by the grace of God, I am still on task. I do wish I was studying full-time though.
Ciaoz!
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