It's supposed to be the holidays but it was a long long week for me. Full day lessons 3 times this week. 2 evenings of badminton and loads of time spent on settling unnecessary stuff. Pretty pissed with that and learning to deal with that in a godly way is no easy. Sigh. Think I failed again. Sigh. Horrible feeling. Headache, crampy and tired from not sleeping well last night.
Thankful for friends who understand. Thanks thanks and thanks again.
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Saturday, June 11, 2011
Saturday, June 4, 2011
When is life worth living?
People tend not to feel lost in singspore because they work hard to earn money which they spend on entertainment to keep their lives seemingly full. Live life to the fullest or carpe diem; something that has been said so very often.
Over here in Jakarta, I see teenagers sitting by the street watching traffic go by, I see people working really hard to make ends meet, I see people working very hard but not getting any money to make ends meet. I see many teenagers gathering at the square one day. It is no wonder if they are resigned to feel they are brought into this world to try to find means to survive. It's really quite sad isn't it?
For these Indonesians, life becomes less meaningful and those who find life meaningful find them in things like love and family. I figured that some of them would also be more dependant on God having been forced to humility.
It's easy to find God when one had nothing but it's more difficult to find Him when one possesses more things. I guess tyr lesson is that God always gives us what is best for us. Thsts why the bible says that contentment is great gain. Lord, teach me to be content with what you have provided for me. Amen.
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Over here in Jakarta, I see teenagers sitting by the street watching traffic go by, I see people working really hard to make ends meet, I see people working very hard but not getting any money to make ends meet. I see many teenagers gathering at the square one day. It is no wonder if they are resigned to feel they are brought into this world to try to find means to survive. It's really quite sad isn't it?
For these Indonesians, life becomes less meaningful and those who find life meaningful find them in things like love and family. I figured that some of them would also be more dependant on God having been forced to humility.
It's easy to find God when one had nothing but it's more difficult to find Him when one possesses more things. I guess tyr lesson is that God always gives us what is best for us. Thsts why the bible says that contentment is great gain. Lord, teach me to be content with what you have provided for me. Amen.
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Friday, June 3, 2011
The 2 random posts were from yesterday's traffic jams
Today's jams caused us to be able to watch 3 full movies; Mr Bean's holiday, Madagscsar and Chicken Little.
I nearly died. Was fidgety and restless for a bit. Then started reading 2 chapters of Mark and then the trashy magazine that a friend bought me to keep me occupied. Nice.
Got another random post from yesterday's traffic jams but shall leave it till tomorrow. I really need to sleep now though I can sleep on the bus tomorrow. :)
Night world.
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I nearly died. Was fidgety and restless for a bit. Then started reading 2 chapters of Mark and then the trashy magazine that a friend bought me to keep me occupied. Nice.
Got another random post from yesterday's traffic jams but shall leave it till tomorrow. I really need to sleep now though I can sleep on the bus tomorrow. :)
Night world.
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Random thought 2
I used to ask my DGL, someone I respect a great deal, about how to apply spiritual authority. I always struggle with being diplomatic yet having something that I felt needed to be said. Most of the time, given my nature, I end up convincing myself not to be judgemental and be more accepting of some of the things people do or say.
Lately, in the past year or two, I feel a sense of calm security in my identity in Christ and feel more able to speak with some level of confidence without letting my emotions take charge. Having this sense of confidence means also being able to think and feel objectively to come about decisions and sometimes I feel that it calls for some space away from my usual level of empathy, sympathy and kind- heartedness..
I pray though, this sense of confidence will not lead me to be a person with characteristics that I don't like in some people. I pray for a heart of discernment to know when to be what at the correct timing.
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Lately, in the past year or two, I feel a sense of calm security in my identity in Christ and feel more able to speak with some level of confidence without letting my emotions take charge. Having this sense of confidence means also being able to think and feel objectively to come about decisions and sometimes I feel that it calls for some space away from my usual level of empathy, sympathy and kind- heartedness..
I pray though, this sense of confidence will not lead me to be a person with characteristics that I don't like in some people. I pray for a heart of discernment to know when to be what at the correct timing.
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From the traffic jams: Post 1
In a way, it's kinda weird leading a team of teachers who are older than me both in age and in the number of years they have been teaching. One is 52 and has been teaching for 30 years. One is 40 and has been teaching for 15 years. There's this other teacher who is 37 this year but 3 years fewer in years of service.
This kinda reminded me of yet another lesson at IDT I has gone through. In that lesson , we learn about 3 types of leadership; downward leadership which is most common , peer leadership which is leading your peers and upward leadership; leading those more senior than you. The most difficult type of leadership is of course peer and upward leadership. I am just thankful for the opportunity to work with these teachers. They are mature yet really fun to be with. I wouldn't trade them for any other staff in the school.
In any case, aside from planning the structure of the overseas trip, I am not really leading them in any way. They are adults and they know what to do.
This is random thought no. 1 from the traffic jam.
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This kinda reminded me of yet another lesson at IDT I has gone through. In that lesson , we learn about 3 types of leadership; downward leadership which is most common , peer leadership which is leading your peers and upward leadership; leading those more senior than you. The most difficult type of leadership is of course peer and upward leadership. I am just thankful for the opportunity to work with these teachers. They are mature yet really fun to be with. I wouldn't trade them for any other staff in the school.
In any case, aside from planning the structure of the overseas trip, I am not really leading them in any way. They are adults and they know what to do.
This is random thought no. 1 from the traffic jam.
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This blog
I have always like to be welcoming to everyone as much as possible so no one feels left out. The only reason why I locked this blog was because I absentmindedly used aussiefreakshen as my handle whilst playing Word with friends (Scrabble) with my colleagues. Since I am not out to them, I figured it's not wise for me to let them chance upon my blog.
Today, I removed 2 persons from the list of readers, simply because I feel uncomfortable letting them read anything more about my life. It's an unlikely shen move but I am more at peace doing so. May God reveal to me the reason for my decision in time to come.
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Today, I removed 2 persons from the list of readers, simply because I feel uncomfortable letting them read anything more about my life. It's an unlikely shen move but I am more at peace doing so. May God reveal to me the reason for my decision in time to come.
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Late night blogging from Jakarta
I don't know what's keeping me awake. It's either the high amount of chinese tea served at the Sudanese dinner, the sugar from the honey dipped Dunkin donut eaten for supper or the invigorating chat I had before my shower.
It has been a blessed trip so far. Apart from one or two students with minor accidents due to untied shoelaces, only one or two others sobbed a little from feeling homesick. I am thankful there is a mother of 2, a grandmother of none and a father of 5 travelling with me.
This batch of kids is lovely. As I observed the dynamics of the students and marvel at their ability to be engaged most of the trip, I am encouraged and pleased to know that they are indeed benefitting from this programme. Given the chance to head this programme all over again ( hope not though), I would change the criteria for admission. These would be the additional points to take note of:
1) Under financial assistance scheme
2) Has never taken a plane in their lives
3) Ability to follow instructions promptly
4) Knows how to tie their shoelaces.
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It has been a blessed trip so far. Apart from one or two students with minor accidents due to untied shoelaces, only one or two others sobbed a little from feeling homesick. I am thankful there is a mother of 2, a grandmother of none and a father of 5 travelling with me.
This batch of kids is lovely. As I observed the dynamics of the students and marvel at their ability to be engaged most of the trip, I am encouraged and pleased to know that they are indeed benefitting from this programme. Given the chance to head this programme all over again ( hope not though), I would change the criteria for admission. These would be the additional points to take note of:
1) Under financial assistance scheme
2) Has never taken a plane in their lives
3) Ability to follow instructions promptly
4) Knows how to tie their shoelaces.
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